Forgetting to live, remembering to survive
The past couple weeks have been sort of strange. The best way I can think of to describe it is that I've been living in the future again, instead of the present. The result is a sort of dream state in which I operate, like I'm sitting at work pushing the buttons and sullenly watching my life drift by on autopilot.
I read Tuesdays with Morrie for AP English, and Morrie says that such a state is a result of unhppiness. Like the things you find important in your life, and the way you go about to achieve those things, don't make you happy. And so life drifts by. There's no feeling.
But with things so busy, I can't afford to not think ahead or I'll forget something and then be in a hole. And there's so many good things to look for in the future, and so few good things going on right now, that I can't help it. Right now is school and obligations and tests and homework, with fun and friends sprinkled in between. But even then, the time with friends seems to drift meaninglessly by. Like there's not enough of it, or whatever I'm doing with that time doesn't register.
But in the future is Forensic State Finals, and Mackinac, and Milwaukee, and graduation, and the all night party, and summer...
I dunno. This isn't to say that I've been hating everything going on. I certainly haven't. But it's sort of just been... whatever.
Hehe. Not sure where I'm going with this anyway. And I have to get back to work and talk on-air in... two minutes and six seconds. Later.
I read Tuesdays with Morrie for AP English, and Morrie says that such a state is a result of unhppiness. Like the things you find important in your life, and the way you go about to achieve those things, don't make you happy. And so life drifts by. There's no feeling.
But with things so busy, I can't afford to not think ahead or I'll forget something and then be in a hole. And there's so many good things to look for in the future, and so few good things going on right now, that I can't help it. Right now is school and obligations and tests and homework, with fun and friends sprinkled in between. But even then, the time with friends seems to drift meaninglessly by. Like there's not enough of it, or whatever I'm doing with that time doesn't register.
But in the future is Forensic State Finals, and Mackinac, and Milwaukee, and graduation, and the all night party, and summer...
I dunno. This isn't to say that I've been hating everything going on. I certainly haven't. But it's sort of just been... whatever.
Hehe. Not sure where I'm going with this anyway. And I have to get back to work and talk on-air in... two minutes and six seconds. Later.