Random emo... wanksting
MySpace makes me angry and hurt and upset. Like I don't know so many things about all these people, that everyone's so different and changed, or maybe they're just putting on a mask. No one cares about values, they're just out to impress everyone else. You don't really know who half the people on your "friends" list are.
Maybe I'll elaborate a little, but I won't put any names.
First, the friends list. Sure, it's kind of fun to be able to brag "I added Dane Cook to my Friends list, and he added me back!" But honestly. You are not friends with Dane Cook. Dane Cook does not know who you are. And maybe there's that girl who's in your sixth hour and sits some two rows in front of you. Do you ever talk to her? Well, no. But you've added her to your Friends list, and now you can proudly display 60 people on your Friends list. But how many of them are really your friends? Do you really even care about making friends, or do you just want to stack up to those popular girls who have 100+ people on their Friends list? Is it about gathering names, or about actually gathering contacts, people you can rely on and and let rely on you?
And sure, that's probably not even the point of the "Friends list" on MySpace. If everyone uses it for the same purpose - simply gathering a list of people you "vaguely know or have heard of", is there something so terribly wrong with it? If everyone can generally agree that you aren't really friends, who's it hurting? No one. It just... looks really shallow. Which is what it is.
The changed and gone by. People you used to know and now scarcely speak to. I mean, some of these people, if you'd asked me five years or five weeks or five days ago, I'd say they would never drink or smoke or be interested in so-and-so. And the relationship status, and the "YES" answers next to "Drink/Smoke?" will prove me wrong again and again. It wouldn't be so bad, perhaps, but I can't... believe it. I'm not saying this out of "Oh my gosh!" disbelief, but the kind of "You're a liar" disbelief.
You don't drink. You don't go out to the bar with your buddies every Friday night and have a round of beer. Maybe, once, at a party, you tried some liquor. And maybe occasionally, at parties like that, someone will bring beer. Because no matter how many times you'll deny it, you have been and always will be afflicted by peer pressure and the inner desire to look cool. I can safely say this because I know damn well it happens to me; yes, I've tried alcohol because I didn't want to look like a prude in front of certain people and I'm not on a huge vendetta against teen drinking. And, well, what's so wrong with it? What's wrong with it is that I don't care how much you say it, you will not be able to say no when the situation gets dangerous or just downright humiliating. You won't! If you can publicly admit on your MySpace that "YES", you drink - which is illegal, by the way, you might want to reconsider posting that - then you might say yes to the lewd game of Spin the Bottle, or Truth or Dare - "I dare you to strip and run naked down the road!" - or even sneaking out of the house in the middle of the night.
And relationships? Highschool romance is... a joke. Maybe I'm just bitter, but it's astonishing how quickly boyfriends and girlfriends come and go, how simple everything is. It's like a game. Who can you bag, who can you be seen with snogging at your locker? Who are we, people so young, to say "yes, I'm in love"? I'm not attacking anyone - I'm just as guilty. It's so hard. Hard to know, hard to tell, hard when you know it's sick to be dancing so close with each other, but really... you want to. And everyone else is doing it. ... Right?
And the people who are dating! Some couples are just so out there, so random, they take you by surprise. And there are pictures and signs posted all over MySpace, references everywhere. You wonder how long it will last - hell, you make bets. Five bucks says it'll last a month. Ten bucks says it'll last a year.
It's so very wrong that you need to be in a relationship to feel worth something. :(
I don't feel so hot about myself right now, either.
I really think it's high time I left Marquette. :(
Maybe I'll elaborate a little, but I won't put any names.
First, the friends list. Sure, it's kind of fun to be able to brag "I added Dane Cook to my Friends list, and he added me back!" But honestly. You are not friends with Dane Cook. Dane Cook does not know who you are. And maybe there's that girl who's in your sixth hour and sits some two rows in front of you. Do you ever talk to her? Well, no. But you've added her to your Friends list, and now you can proudly display 60 people on your Friends list. But how many of them are really your friends? Do you really even care about making friends, or do you just want to stack up to those popular girls who have 100+ people on their Friends list? Is it about gathering names, or about actually gathering contacts, people you can rely on and and let rely on you?
And sure, that's probably not even the point of the "Friends list" on MySpace. If everyone uses it for the same purpose - simply gathering a list of people you "vaguely know or have heard of", is there something so terribly wrong with it? If everyone can generally agree that you aren't really friends, who's it hurting? No one. It just... looks really shallow. Which is what it is.
The changed and gone by. People you used to know and now scarcely speak to. I mean, some of these people, if you'd asked me five years or five weeks or five days ago, I'd say they would never drink or smoke or be interested in so-and-so. And the relationship status, and the "YES" answers next to "Drink/Smoke?" will prove me wrong again and again. It wouldn't be so bad, perhaps, but I can't... believe it. I'm not saying this out of "Oh my gosh!" disbelief, but the kind of "You're a liar" disbelief.
You don't drink. You don't go out to the bar with your buddies every Friday night and have a round of beer. Maybe, once, at a party, you tried some liquor. And maybe occasionally, at parties like that, someone will bring beer. Because no matter how many times you'll deny it, you have been and always will be afflicted by peer pressure and the inner desire to look cool. I can safely say this because I know damn well it happens to me; yes, I've tried alcohol because I didn't want to look like a prude in front of certain people and I'm not on a huge vendetta against teen drinking. And, well, what's so wrong with it? What's wrong with it is that I don't care how much you say it, you will not be able to say no when the situation gets dangerous or just downright humiliating. You won't! If you can publicly admit on your MySpace that "YES", you drink - which is illegal, by the way, you might want to reconsider posting that - then you might say yes to the lewd game of Spin the Bottle, or Truth or Dare - "I dare you to strip and run naked down the road!" - or even sneaking out of the house in the middle of the night.
And relationships? Highschool romance is... a joke. Maybe I'm just bitter, but it's astonishing how quickly boyfriends and girlfriends come and go, how simple everything is. It's like a game. Who can you bag, who can you be seen with snogging at your locker? Who are we, people so young, to say "yes, I'm in love"? I'm not attacking anyone - I'm just as guilty. It's so hard. Hard to know, hard to tell, hard when you know it's sick to be dancing so close with each other, but really... you want to. And everyone else is doing it. ... Right?
And the people who are dating! Some couples are just so out there, so random, they take you by surprise. And there are pictures and signs posted all over MySpace, references everywhere. You wonder how long it will last - hell, you make bets. Five bucks says it'll last a month. Ten bucks says it'll last a year.
It's so very wrong that you need to be in a relationship to feel worth something. :(
I don't feel so hot about myself right now, either.
I really think it's high time I left Marquette. :(