Back again
It's been ages since I last posted, it's funny to read and yes I did get good things, they came my way and heart breaking things that are circling me today.
The biggest bad things to happen:
Griff died, horribly.
Geoff, my cousin, died horribly.
SK and I are probably never going to speak again.
Good things happened: I made better friends, I worked, I met Peter and he's great.
But today I have just shifted right back into hell and I feel I'll never get rid of it, it's there in the back of my mind always. I woke up thinking about Geoff's dead, bloated face. Thinking about him hanging himself, thinking about his family finding him, of how they get up every day and get on with things and he was their son, their brother, their close family. And it paralyses me. I think about how strong they are to survive every day and how weak I am that I wake up most days thinking about his black lips, dreaming about the bruises round his neck.
And people hurt you all the time. All the time when you care about them they just lash out at you constantly, it's really battering me right now, I can't take it. People take this shit all the time, why can't I? Why is this so hard.
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The biggest bad things to happen:
Griff died, horribly.
Geoff, my cousin, died horribly.
SK and I are probably never going to speak again.
Good things happened: I made better friends, I worked, I met Peter and he's great.
But today I have just shifted right back into hell and I feel I'll never get rid of it, it's there in the back of my mind always. I woke up thinking about Geoff's dead, bloated face. Thinking about him hanging himself, thinking about his family finding him, of how they get up every day and get on with things and he was their son, their brother, their close family. And it paralyses me. I think about how strong they are to survive every day and how weak I am that I wake up most days thinking about his black lips, dreaming about the bruises round his neck.
And people hurt you all the time. All the time when you care about them they just lash out at you constantly, it's really battering me right now, I can't take it. People take this shit all the time, why can't I? Why is this so hard.
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