A clarification for myself.
Seeing as this is the Internet, a public domain, I should have made myself clearer on a myspace post yesterday.
I have problems only with myself, with my personality. I'm rather loud, rather obnoxious, and very arrogant. That's only the beginning of it.
I want to fix that, but I find myself thinking, "Well, I can just start fresh in Chicago this summer." That doesn't work. That's called running away, and as much as I'd like to take some goddamned responsibility for myself, I keep hoping that my arrogance, among other things, will be forgotten when I know that it will not.
So here. I have it here, every time I log into my journal. I am admitting that I have an abrasive personality. Any problems I have are not problems with others, but with myself.
So you know what? Deal. I'm going to try and be a little more keen on fixing what I don't like about me. I know I have it pretty damn good; that makes it a bit easier to start working on my personality. At the very least, I'm going to work my ass off to stop bitching about the smallest things and screaming over minute details.
I have problems only with myself, with my personality. I'm rather loud, rather obnoxious, and very arrogant. That's only the beginning of it.
I want to fix that, but I find myself thinking, "Well, I can just start fresh in Chicago this summer." That doesn't work. That's called running away, and as much as I'd like to take some goddamned responsibility for myself, I keep hoping that my arrogance, among other things, will be forgotten when I know that it will not.
So here. I have it here, every time I log into my journal. I am admitting that I have an abrasive personality. Any problems I have are not problems with others, but with myself.
So you know what? Deal. I'm going to try and be a little more keen on fixing what I don't like about me. I know I have it pretty damn good; that makes it a bit easier to start working on my personality. At the very least, I'm going to work my ass off to stop bitching about the smallest things and screaming over minute details.