a new challenge
Yesterday. Yesterday was a day. The world got smaller, darker. I grew more afraid. Not of what I am, but of what could become of me. I tried to clear my mind and focus on my work. My eyes fade. And I see.... Her. The image of perfection. Her small beautiful frame, her lips smooth. And I keep thinking, what am I so afraid of ?
Dana got upset. Yesterday a girl approached us when we were sitting in a bar and had been flirting quite openly. I had tried to remain polite, giving short answers and when she turned away, we had fled the bar. However this had come on a collision course with a girl who is stalking me at work and had proved to be a strain on my girlfriend.
I told her I regretted the fact that I had not told the girl to go away. That I had been passive and that I had made an error in judgement. She agreed. Wholeheartedly.
And she cried...
A lot.
In fact the words she used were ' show me that you care for our relationship.'
This girl is everything to me. She reminded me of what I'm capable of feeling. Its like I was walking around seeing my life through a smudged window, and then I saw her, and the smudges were gone. The window was clean.
From the moment I met her, all those months ago, not a day has gone by when I havent thought of her. And now that I'm with her again... Im in agony. The closer I get to her, the worse it gets. The thought of not being with her- I cant breath. My heart is beating.... hoping that each kiss she has given me will not become a scar. She is in my very soul... what can I do?
So today I will try to adapt a new approach. So that not another tear is shed from my girlfriends eye.
I am learning... still slowly learning....
Dana got upset. Yesterday a girl approached us when we were sitting in a bar and had been flirting quite openly. I had tried to remain polite, giving short answers and when she turned away, we had fled the bar. However this had come on a collision course with a girl who is stalking me at work and had proved to be a strain on my girlfriend.
I told her I regretted the fact that I had not told the girl to go away. That I had been passive and that I had made an error in judgement. She agreed. Wholeheartedly.
And she cried...
A lot.
In fact the words she used were ' show me that you care for our relationship.'
This girl is everything to me. She reminded me of what I'm capable of feeling. Its like I was walking around seeing my life through a smudged window, and then I saw her, and the smudges were gone. The window was clean.
From the moment I met her, all those months ago, not a day has gone by when I havent thought of her. And now that I'm with her again... Im in agony. The closer I get to her, the worse it gets. The thought of not being with her- I cant breath. My heart is beating.... hoping that each kiss she has given me will not become a scar. She is in my very soul... what can I do?
So today I will try to adapt a new approach. So that not another tear is shed from my girlfriends eye.
I am learning... still slowly learning....