advice
(purple? yup. i know it's weird... but sometime, it's just right)
so i really actually do love to give other people advice. but i was talking to my friend derrik about a girl he met... and something clicked. b/c i told him that if it's meant to be, then it will work out. it will happen. but if it's not, then it was fun while it lasted. you know, don't look at it as a waste, look at it as a fun experience that didn't go farther. and i looked at it after i wrote it... I SHOULD LISTEN TO MYSELF! don't you do that sometimes? you tell someone else something, then realize that it is hand made for you too? i mean, i have been stressin over the guys... but know what? if it is meant to be, then it will happen. it will work out... he'll stop being an ass and talk to me... he'll come home and have missed me... etc etc. but if not, then i really did have fun with both of them. they're great guys in their own way. and i had a good time with them... maybe it was exactly what i need. not nec. what i want... i want long term. but know what? maybe that's not what i need. maybe i needed a taste, b/c it will make the real thing so much better. but know what? speculating isn't going to make anything happen, or make anything better. you know, the what if's. but know what? sometimes the what if's make you feel better. well, sometimes thinking about the possibilites makes me feel better. that's about it for now...
i really really REALLY hate drama. you know what i'm talking about....
all i have to say is that going to the gym at midnight and working till after one might SOUND crazy... and it is. but it is also a way better way to waste time not sleeping than say watching tv or ANOTHER movie...
the world is a really beautiful place. washington is a really beautiful place. i know i complain about it a lot... but the last two nights, the sky has been so breathtakingly stunning that i just sat in wonder looking at it. we live in an incredible world... ya it has it's downs... lots of them... but wow it's beautiful. THANK GOD. literally... praises.