bored
let's see the last time i went out and did anything with my "friends" was when i went to mike's house for his beer pong tournament that i didnt even stay long for because of the kids but also because i didnt really feel like being there either. srry to some people that were there that i did want to be around but crowds just dont do it for me. but yea i NEED to get out and do something. i think that the whole reason i havent is becuase im saving my babysitter time for when i go to christina's wedding. i havent quite yet decided wiether or not i want to bring them cause i want to take them so people can see them, yet i dont want to have to watch their everymove. i want to be able to do other things than chase them down all night, especially when im supose to have my awsome date come with me that i havent seen in two years...hopefully anyways i need to ask her again. but being stuck in this house is driving me crazy and everytime i say that im going to do something my step dad pipes in that the kids will have an awesome time doing that, so i dont end up going cause i dont want to drag them around. sometimes i hate to say it that i hate being a mother. sometimes i just want to be alone. im almost anticpating the day that i drop them off at their dad's house for the weekend, but even then i wont know what to do proabably stay at home and catch up on much needed sleep. but that's not until after the 24 of sepetember when we go to court. yippy...:(