life sucks
i try so hard to understand why these things happen to me i finially find something i want and i cant have it everything and everyone steps in my way to take it away. all i want is to be happy is that to much to ask for. i put my heart and soul into something and i get tounge fucked in the ass always. you why cant it be someone else and just for once just let me be fucking happy JUST FOR ONCE I WOULD LIKE TO BE HAPPY. thats all happy. i thought that is what i had but i guess being stupid is what i really had. i sit and listen to all others who have problems and help to fix them up and for once i have or at least have some thing going right in my life i am happy it is all taken away from me in one rip. no one knows how i really feel and this will get thrown back as to where it is MY FUCKING FAULT fine then it is. one says that i have to right to be mad at them and the other says that they did not do anything wrong when in fact both are guilty for playing with my emotions there we go fucking with her emotions. leading me in the direction of happiness and allowing me to believe that i could be happy when in fact the truth of the matter is that i wont never be. so you know what i throw in the towel FUCK the whold damn world men women girls boys i am soooooo fucking done i am told that i am acting out but you know what i dont give a fuck anymore. for the parties involved i give up i am done. i cant handle this anymore. the next step is to let myself know how fucking stupid i was to believe that i could be happy and realize that life is a bich and when you get tounge fucked in the ass like i did then the next step it to take yourself out and yall can take that to what ever the fucking way that you want to i dont give a fuck. casue i am done i have pulled out all my towels and quit.