Depressed
I am so depressed/upset. I just found out that I probably will be graduating (receiving my diplomas) in December, which means that I can't participate in this year's graduation ceremonies as a graduate. Which means that I won't be able to apply for a teaching job for September, since I won't have a degree. Which means that I will either have to get a substitute teacher certification and sub or work full-time at CVS while I wait to get my diplomas.
This fucking sucks. It's because of my thesis. I fucking hate it. I hope it spontaneously combusts while FA is reading it, setting him on fire. I can't deal with this anymore. I feel like a fucking failure and a joke and like a disappointment to my entire family. I know they don't think that, but it doesn't make me feel any better.
Whatever. I feel like jumping into oncoming traffic right now. Instead, I'll write a contract for my accompanist so she doesn't get deported and go to work to deal with fucking morons.
I hate my goddamn life.
This fucking sucks. It's because of my thesis. I fucking hate it. I hope it spontaneously combusts while FA is reading it, setting him on fire. I can't deal with this anymore. I feel like a fucking failure and a joke and like a disappointment to my entire family. I know they don't think that, but it doesn't make me feel any better.
Whatever. I feel like jumping into oncoming traffic right now. Instead, I'll write a contract for my accompanist so she doesn't get deported and go to work to deal with fucking morons.
I hate my goddamn life.