Time seems to have gotten the better of me
My heart hurts right now, but not for the reasons most people might think. I am sad at the prospect of losing something very close to me. My baby whom I have had and loved for 8 years is sick and dying. My poor Jo Anna, whom is old by iguana years, is not eating and has lost a lot of weight. I am trying to force feed her baby food. It is odd, she is only a pet and some say not a good one, as she truly cannot cuddle with me, but in her own way she does.
She has been there through the loss of Sammy, her first boyfriend and the loss of Phoenix, her second boyfriend. She has been there to climb on me and nuzzle me when I was sad and lonely. Jo jo loves taking walks with me on her leash and the prospect of not being able to do that this summer makes me sad. It is heart breaking really.
I guess some will say it is silly, as she is only a pet, but she is the only thing that has loved me unconditionally for 8 years.
She would not even eat a banana last night, which is her favorite. Made me cry, she won't really open her eyes, but she turned her head and nuzzled my nose last night, probably to tell me it will be ok. I told her she cannot die, as I still need her with me to make me laugh. Thinking back I feel selfish for saying it, as she is probably suffering. I told her tonight it was perfectly ok for her to leave as her suffering is more important then the pain of me losing her. In some weird way it seemed like she understood, as she then turned her head and ate a little food.....
England said he will be there to comfort me if I need it, and I am sure I will. He told me, that when she passes she will go to iguana heaven and be with Godzilla. I know he was trying to make me smile, and it was so ridiculous it did make me smile for a bit.
In any case, I am sad and time is working against me.
She has been there through the loss of Sammy, her first boyfriend and the loss of Phoenix, her second boyfriend. She has been there to climb on me and nuzzle me when I was sad and lonely. Jo jo loves taking walks with me on her leash and the prospect of not being able to do that this summer makes me sad. It is heart breaking really.
I guess some will say it is silly, as she is only a pet, but she is the only thing that has loved me unconditionally for 8 years.
She would not even eat a banana last night, which is her favorite. Made me cry, she won't really open her eyes, but she turned her head and nuzzled my nose last night, probably to tell me it will be ok. I told her she cannot die, as I still need her with me to make me laugh. Thinking back I feel selfish for saying it, as she is probably suffering. I told her tonight it was perfectly ok for her to leave as her suffering is more important then the pain of me losing her. In some weird way it seemed like she understood, as she then turned her head and ate a little food.....
England said he will be there to comfort me if I need it, and I am sure I will. He told me, that when she passes she will go to iguana heaven and be with Godzilla. I know he was trying to make me smile, and it was so ridiculous it did make me smile for a bit.
In any case, I am sad and time is working against me.