Not because I say nothing means it's okay
We were just talking about how as a country, we have no sense of history that, unlike Argentina or any other country which was once under dictatorial rule who prosecute those who have lambasted society, we just forgive and forget.
I thought that everyone has that very forgiving and forgetful nature here, because even someone I know who has felt hurt by her boyfriend a million times, just complains, forgives and forgets. It's as simple (and as stupid) as that. (I mean why complain when you know it's okay with you anyway which is something I'm doing right now, but I won't admit because I am not stupid like her)
Fortunately, not everyone in this country thinks that way, because my past is well-remembered and well-brought up every single time, despite the overload of wonders I have done to cover that act (yes, I am that good, I've done a lot of good ever since). To completely let things die down, I just sit in silence and wait for them to get tired, because they do, eventually. To put up a strong front, I do not make it a big issue because it should not be an issue anymore.
But it's just so f*cking tiring to allow them to say all those crap and just feel hurt in the deepest darkest depths of my existence without even bothering to defend myself. I have made a lot of mistakes, please don't let this decision be another.
And no one will ever get it nor even try to get it. It's not everyday I can find someone like me who will console me and listen to me the way I do to people who need my consolation (I am that awesome. Everyone flocks to me for advice!). So maybe, in another life, I will befriend myself, because I'll be there for me when I need me. No matter what.
I thought that everyone has that very forgiving and forgetful nature here, because even someone I know who has felt hurt by her boyfriend a million times, just complains, forgives and forgets. It's as simple (and as stupid) as that. (I mean why complain when you know it's okay with you anyway which is something I'm doing right now, but I won't admit because I am not stupid like her)
Fortunately, not everyone in this country thinks that way, because my past is well-remembered and well-brought up every single time, despite the overload of wonders I have done to cover that act (yes, I am that good, I've done a lot of good ever since). To completely let things die down, I just sit in silence and wait for them to get tired, because they do, eventually. To put up a strong front, I do not make it a big issue because it should not be an issue anymore.
But it's just so f*cking tiring to allow them to say all those crap and just feel hurt in the deepest darkest depths of my existence without even bothering to defend myself. I have made a lot of mistakes, please don't let this decision be another.
And no one will ever get it nor even try to get it. It's not everyday I can find someone like me who will console me and listen to me the way I do to people who need my consolation (I am that awesome. Everyone flocks to me for advice!). So maybe, in another life, I will befriend myself, because I'll be there for me when I need me. No matter what.