:-\
I've been feeling really out-of-it since I got home on Wednesday and if I didn't know any better, depressed. I don't think I'm *really* depressed, just bummed. I had a fantastic time in England. I saw a lot of really neat things and places that I'll remember for a long time. Really though, it wasn't WHAT I saw, it was WHO I saw that made the trip for me. I felt so happy, content, comfortable and... pleased - especially Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Shaun is just as fantastic, if not moreso, in person than on the computer and I think we got along just as well. Like we predicted, it wasn't like having a stranger meet me at the airport at all.It was actually a really neat feeling and I had to keep mentally pinching myself to see if it was all real. I hope it was real. It already feels like ages ago and I saw him Wednesday morning.
I guess my brain got a taste of what it might be like if we lived on the same side of the ocean (regardless which side) and THAT was a great daydream. Unfortunately, it's just that - a daydream and now it's back to the world of Yahoo and time zones and emoticons. I'm not knocking my roots, the internet is how this whole thing started, but it absolutely pales in comparison to the real thing. I think I'm having trouble adjusting back to that. I start work tomorrow and I'm kind of hoping that I'll be really really busy for a couple of months so it flies by. It's going to take me about 2.5 months to save up a week of time off for him to come over here. He said that once I'm settled in with the new job that we'll figure out when he can visit. I'll be honest and wear my heart completely on my sleeve - it can't come soon enough. I enjoyed every minute I got to spend with him and only regret that there were so few of them to spend.
Le sigh... I'll be ok. Much much worse things could have happened. He's still speaking to me so I apparently didn't scare him off with my personality or how I look (which I'm still working on changing). At least I've answered the question of how I would introduce him to people. After last weekend, THAT is easy! :-) I'm off to bed now. I'll probably write some about the job tomorrow. Hasta la byebye.
I guess my brain got a taste of what it might be like if we lived on the same side of the ocean (regardless which side) and THAT was a great daydream. Unfortunately, it's just that - a daydream and now it's back to the world of Yahoo and time zones and emoticons. I'm not knocking my roots, the internet is how this whole thing started, but it absolutely pales in comparison to the real thing. I think I'm having trouble adjusting back to that. I start work tomorrow and I'm kind of hoping that I'll be really really busy for a couple of months so it flies by. It's going to take me about 2.5 months to save up a week of time off for him to come over here. He said that once I'm settled in with the new job that we'll figure out when he can visit. I'll be honest and wear my heart completely on my sleeve - it can't come soon enough. I enjoyed every minute I got to spend with him and only regret that there were so few of them to spend.
Le sigh... I'll be ok. Much much worse things could have happened. He's still speaking to me so I apparently didn't scare him off with my personality or how I look (which I'm still working on changing). At least I've answered the question of how I would introduce him to people. After last weekend, THAT is easy! :-) I'm off to bed now. I'll probably write some about the job tomorrow. Hasta la byebye.