Wow I'm a fucking gay
Wow... I just stayed up all fucking night playing FFXI. Time went by so fast...
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Jesus fucking christ my head hurts, my eyes burns, and I'm hungry as all fucking hell.
Well... whatever. Hunter should have asked Lauren out... I don't really know what to feel. I have mixed emotions about everything.
If he asked her out, then sure, I'm happy for him, he is one of my best friends after all, and of course I want to see him happy. But, I've also developed this crush for her, without even meeting her physically, her personality is just that great... That's the worst part about this crush. It's not even lust that pulls me to her, it's the simple fact that I thoroughly enjoy talking with her and joking around. I was thinking maybe I should ask her out on a date or something... see if maybe I could go out with her, and possibly move on from Cece... and then I think, about it, and I don't wanna move on past her. She's the one that makes everything better. And despite how long it's been since I broke up with her, I still feel for her, just as I did then... =[ I can't ever make up my mind wether to let her know just how deep my feelings run, and it's just making it worse. I can't wait to Friday... or hell even today. I need to have fun and get my mind off things.
I wanna be happy.
@_@
Jesus fucking christ my head hurts, my eyes burns, and I'm hungry as all fucking hell.
Well... whatever. Hunter should have asked Lauren out... I don't really know what to feel. I have mixed emotions about everything.
If he asked her out, then sure, I'm happy for him, he is one of my best friends after all, and of course I want to see him happy. But, I've also developed this crush for her, without even meeting her physically, her personality is just that great... That's the worst part about this crush. It's not even lust that pulls me to her, it's the simple fact that I thoroughly enjoy talking with her and joking around. I was thinking maybe I should ask her out on a date or something... see if maybe I could go out with her, and possibly move on from Cece... and then I think, about it, and I don't wanna move on past her. She's the one that makes everything better. And despite how long it's been since I broke up with her, I still feel for her, just as I did then... =[ I can't ever make up my mind wether to let her know just how deep my feelings run, and it's just making it worse. I can't wait to Friday... or hell even today. I need to have fun and get my mind off things.
I wanna be happy.