Roller Coaster
I don't know what's wrong with me. I have this extraordinary husband who I love dearly, I have the most amazing boyfriend who is able to make me smile til my face hurts, I finally have a set of friends who I honestly believe would do anything for me and I for them and yet ... tonight I sit at my laptop, tired from work, stressed about money, and lonely because it's after midnight and everyone I care deeply for is asleep. Work started out wonderfully tonight, I was able to spend my lunchbreak with one of my all time favourite people, and in his arms no less, but by the end of my shift I was feeling quite down and tried to reach out for company but everyone has their own lives and I hate to be a bother, when my friend Sarah came into work to surprise me. She had been driving past and wasn't planning on stopping in when she suddenly felt a strong urge to do a U-turn and come inside. I cannot tell you how good her hug felt, not just because she has amazing breasts ;), and before long I started to cry in her arms. I don't know what force made her come inside but I thank them for it because that was a lifejacket. I don't know why I'm wired this way. I don't understand why when everything is going so right and I'm on top of the world that I can be in a pit of despair mere hours later. What's wrong with me? Why do I want to cry when I'm the luckiest woman in all the world? How can I be exceptionally happy and still feel this ache in my chest? Forget I said anything.