Loki!feels

[angualupin]

finnygan asked for Loki recs. Unfortunately, Loki fic that isn't poorly written Loki/Thor (a pairing I have problems with on so many levels) is hard to come by, but I've found a few. Any more recs anyone has would be appreciated, of course.

Amateur Theatrics. Gen. Loki accidentally gets de-aged. Child!Loki is incredibly damaged, but not yet beyond rescue

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SO MANY FEELS. ALL THE FEELS. WE HAS THEM. Loki, damn, he is so unreasonably fucked up, why do I love him so much?

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That's exactly it, of course. He's not evil because he's evil, he's evil because he has spent his entire life being the only person with more than two brain cells to rub together on a planet inhabited entirely by Thors, and Odin's parenting skills suck. Also, as Amateur Theatrics point out, if you take the myths as any kind of guide to what Loki's life actually was like, he's suffered an entire lifetime of abuse. Yeah, he's the trickster and liar, but what else is he supposed to do? He's never going to be better than Thor at hitting things. It's not his fault that the entire rest of the fucking planet thinks that hitting things is the only way to go through life.

I've always had a bit of a soft spot for mythological!Loki, anyway, for much the same reason. When the Aesir get into a scrape they can't hit their way out of (see: all the fucking time), who do they turn to? Loki. And then when he thinks their way out of the problem, all he gets is reviled for it. Mythology is fucked up.

[angualupin]

The thing you have to keep in mind when dealing with Loki is that the myths -- the backstory, which they may sanitize for comics and film but is still there, informing Loki's character -- is, as Sofie keeps pointing out, not nice. The Aesir are not nice. Thor and Odin are not nice. They are the myths of a warrior culture, and the Aesir are warriors. And you can clean that up as much as you want for modern consumption, but you're still ultimately dealing with characters that are coming out of all this mythological backstory, and that still, comics!canon or not, makes them who they are.

I mean, we can write humorous fics about Loki getting knocked up when you look at him sideways, but behind that, Valar in Aman, what they do to Loki's children. It is fine to have a mythos that says, "and then Loki turned into a horse and got pregnant and gave birth to a foal, and that is how Slepnir, Odin's steed, was born", and on a purely mythological level, that is fine. But once you start thinking of Loki as a person, which comics!canon has done by

[angualupin]

My previous post has about a third of the Maedhros fic I'm working on -- any chance you could take a look at it? It's a different writing style for me and I think the pacing might be slightly off.

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Of course, sometimes I can't write angst, either:

Three bodies lie in the shadows of the trees of Doriath: Celegorm, Curufin, and Caranthir. Maedhros leans on his sword and regards them. He knows he should weep, but he has not wept since Fingon died, and tears do not come now.

When you meet Father’s shade in the Halls of Mandos, he thinks at them, tell him to go fuck himself.

Not really the tone I was going for.

[angualupin]

He does have a point! And it would be totally fine if I were writing somewhat-amusing-take-on-Maedhros'-life, but I'm not, I'm writing Maedhros's-life-is-high-tragedy. Tone is key.