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I know I'll probably delete this later, but idk.
I like Joshh, hes really sweet, but there are some
things I don't like about him, and he's not much
my type, so that makes it even more difficult.
So I really dont know how long he and I will last,
I guess only time will tell.
To be honest, I dont think he brings out the best in me.
Like, I'm still shy, and he doesnt really
try much to get me to talk or anything.
And I'll say I have a bad day and he'd say "aw, I wish
I could make it better" instead of asking why I had a bad day.
I dont know if I'm just saying that because
Vince(Turner(TX)) brings out the best in me
and I feel like I can be myself, and say
whatever I want, and he makes me laugh
and we have good conversation. But with Josh,
he's nice and fun and whatnot, but he's not
what I'm looking for. And I dont want to be like
"sorry, joshh, i dont want to go out with you
anymore becuase you dont bring the best in me"
Or lie and make something up.
I think it's because we jumped into relationship too quickly
Instead of the "friends first" thing.
I wish someone I really really like (which is nobody right now)
but maybe someone will come along. And kiss me or something
and I could tell Josh, and he'd break up with me instead.
I'd feel better about it. But thats really really mean.
And plus, his last gf cheated on him and thats how they
broke up.
I just dont know. I'm confused about my feelings.
I like Joshh, hes really sweet, but there are some
things I don't like about him, and he's not much
my type, so that makes it even more difficult.
So I really dont know how long he and I will last,
I guess only time will tell.
To be honest, I dont think he brings out the best in me.
Like, I'm still shy, and he doesnt really
try much to get me to talk or anything.
And I'll say I have a bad day and he'd say "aw, I wish
I could make it better" instead of asking why I had a bad day.
I dont know if I'm just saying that because
Vince(Turner(TX)) brings out the best in me
and I feel like I can be myself, and say
whatever I want, and he makes me laugh
and we have good conversation. But with Josh,
he's nice and fun and whatnot, but he's not
what I'm looking for. And I dont want to be like
"sorry, joshh, i dont want to go out with you
anymore becuase you dont bring the best in me"
Or lie and make something up.
I think it's because we jumped into relationship too quickly
Instead of the "friends first" thing.
I wish someone I really really like (which is nobody right now)
but maybe someone will come along. And kiss me or something
and I could tell Josh, and he'd break up with me instead.
I'd feel better about it. But thats really really mean.
And plus, his last gf cheated on him and thats how they
broke up.
I just dont know. I'm confused about my feelings.