Appologies
In complete opposition to the last post I want to appologise to those who I've been a jerk to lately. I let the pressure get to me and I cracked a little. Ok, maybe a lot. I mean even I know different isn't spelled d-i-f-f-e-r-A-n-t!
Here's a brief explination of the pressures:
-I stopped talking to a best friend who I had sickly made into more than she was and we were because I was obssesed with her and it just wasn't right for me to continue decieving us both into thinking we were ok.
-A good friend of mine and RA office duty partner suddenly quit without ever mentioning anything to me and I haven't heared a word from her since (I hope she's ok, but I'm pissed if she is)
-I've failed Junior Thesis, or at the very least I've failed to get into the show, something I've been looking forward to for the past 2-3 years. Huge bummer and a super big reajustments of expectations.
-I've been pulling all nighters like crazy... so my brain chemistry is fucked.
-I haven't seen my puppy in at least 3 months... you can't really talk to a dog over the phone to make up for that.
-My room is a mess and it's driving me insane as it always does. Every time I clean it the room becomes a mess again within 24 hours.
-I have not a kitchen of my own to make healthy meals. Thus I always feel a certain level of crap. Watch Super Size Me if you doubt this.
Some of these are new and some are just constants that have just lowered my tolerance. None of these are excuses, just explinations.
Lots of ok and good thins happen to me too, I just love to dwell on the aweful, I'm an Angst Pirate for a reason.
Here's a brief explination of the pressures:
-I stopped talking to a best friend who I had sickly made into more than she was and we were because I was obssesed with her and it just wasn't right for me to continue decieving us both into thinking we were ok.
-A good friend of mine and RA office duty partner suddenly quit without ever mentioning anything to me and I haven't heared a word from her since (I hope she's ok, but I'm pissed if she is)
-I've failed Junior Thesis, or at the very least I've failed to get into the show, something I've been looking forward to for the past 2-3 years. Huge bummer and a super big reajustments of expectations.
-I've been pulling all nighters like crazy... so my brain chemistry is fucked.
-I haven't seen my puppy in at least 3 months... you can't really talk to a dog over the phone to make up for that.
-My room is a mess and it's driving me insane as it always does. Every time I clean it the room becomes a mess again within 24 hours.
-I have not a kitchen of my own to make healthy meals. Thus I always feel a certain level of crap. Watch Super Size Me if you doubt this.
Some of these are new and some are just constants that have just lowered my tolerance. None of these are excuses, just explinations.
Lots of ok and good thins happen to me too, I just love to dwell on the aweful, I'm an Angst Pirate for a reason.