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[angst_pirate]

If I wanted to I could do anything right
I could dance with the devil on a
Saturday night
If I wanted to I could turn matches to gold
I could smoke drink swear and I would never
grow old
I wouldn't have to be in love with you
If I only wanted to
If I only wanted to

If I wanted to I could run fast as a train
Be as sharp as a needle that's twisting your brain
If I wanted to I could turn mountains to sand
Have political leaders in the palm of my hand
I wouldn't have to be in love with you
If I only wanted to
If I only wanted to

I could leave tonight
And I would be all right
Stop holding on
If I wanted to
If I only wanted to

If I wanted to I could be as patient as death
Fix this hole in my heart leaking into my flesh
If I wanted to I could turn sparks into ice
There'd never be another woman who could make you
think twice
I wouldn't have to be in love with you
If I only wanted to
If I only wanted to

This is basically how I feel about my life right now.. if I really wanted to or if I really just tried I could do anyfuckingthing and make everything work... but I for some reason don't really want to succeed completelyy in any area of my life... I mean that's just too much pressure : / look what succeeding at cartoon allies got me.. a bunch of thanks and just a ton more work and nothing I can really hold onto from it like maybe a little financial aid : p