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As I posted before, I'm going to be staying in the NICU special part time, which means, I have to work 2 twelve hour shifts in a six week period. Shouldn't be too hard, I figure I will work every 3rd Saturday.
Tonight is my last full time night. Last night was a myriad of emotions. A lot of the people that I really enjoy working with don't do any weekends, so I won't see them for a long time. The well wishes and congratulations made me feel really good. Almost enough to have me second guess my decision. But then...
How come my last two days of working have to be with the core group of people that make me dislike it there? One specifically. The charge nurse that I am always butting heads with. She worked last night and made it a point to sigh and roll her eyes everytime someone wished me luck or asked about the new job. She didn't say ANYTHING to me or ask about the position at all. Except at one point I was carrying a baby around and she said "Your going to miss the babies" and walked away?! She irritated me because I shouldnt have to be there tonight. When I cut my schedule I could have been off all weekend and still met my requirements for this schedule period... but one of my coworkers had strep, so on Thursday Lillian asked if I could do Saturday to cover. Well, Beth, with strep, was back last night after being on antibiotics.. actually she said she never had strep and that was just a miscommunication. So I asked Aimee *the* charge nurse, could I go ahead and have tonight since my requirements were met and I was technically doing it to cover for Beth. She said "No, we already have to cover for you Sunday since you arent going to work it" and again, just walked away.
I told my nurse manager two weeks ago about my intentions. She said she would fix the schedule. She didn't. She delegated the job to someone else, and they didn't. That isnt MY fault. When I got there on Thursday nothing had been changed or taken off so I had to talk to Lillian to get it done. It just irritated me because I don't care to be there tonight... but the way she spoke to me was very crass. Of course, thats what I normally get from her... so I shouldn't have expected pleasantries.
I over heard my coworkers talking last night, the ones that I generally speaking like and get along with... they are going to have a party for me tonight... but it is supposed to be a suprise. A real treat would be if Aimee called in... then I could have a refreshing time.
When I got in my car this morning I was seriously wondering if I had made the right move. Most people were so kind when I was leaving that it made me appreciate a lot of them, and realize how much I will miss some of them. As I was sitting contemplating things the song "The Rose" came on... maybe it wasn't applicable, but it made me tear up and decide that fate was nudging me. I need to do this, and grow and have more routine, and more experiences and not be afraid.
I have so many *other* things going on in my mind that I need to work out... I shouldn't stress over the decisions I *have* made. Maybe I'll work the rest out in my sleep today and then all will be well with the Katie world.
Tonight is my last full time night. Last night was a myriad of emotions. A lot of the people that I really enjoy working with don't do any weekends, so I won't see them for a long time. The well wishes and congratulations made me feel really good. Almost enough to have me second guess my decision. But then...
How come my last two days of working have to be with the core group of people that make me dislike it there? One specifically. The charge nurse that I am always butting heads with. She worked last night and made it a point to sigh and roll her eyes everytime someone wished me luck or asked about the new job. She didn't say ANYTHING to me or ask about the position at all. Except at one point I was carrying a baby around and she said "Your going to miss the babies" and walked away?! She irritated me because I shouldnt have to be there tonight. When I cut my schedule I could have been off all weekend and still met my requirements for this schedule period... but one of my coworkers had strep, so on Thursday Lillian asked if I could do Saturday to cover. Well, Beth, with strep, was back last night after being on antibiotics.. actually she said she never had strep and that was just a miscommunication. So I asked Aimee *the* charge nurse, could I go ahead and have tonight since my requirements were met and I was technically doing it to cover for Beth. She said "No, we already have to cover for you Sunday since you arent going to work it" and again, just walked away.
I told my nurse manager two weeks ago about my intentions. She said she would fix the schedule. She didn't. She delegated the job to someone else, and they didn't. That isnt MY fault. When I got there on Thursday nothing had been changed or taken off so I had to talk to Lillian to get it done. It just irritated me because I don't care to be there tonight... but the way she spoke to me was very crass. Of course, thats what I normally get from her... so I shouldn't have expected pleasantries.
I over heard my coworkers talking last night, the ones that I generally speaking like and get along with... they are going to have a party for me tonight... but it is supposed to be a suprise. A real treat would be if Aimee called in... then I could have a refreshing time.
When I got in my car this morning I was seriously wondering if I had made the right move. Most people were so kind when I was leaving that it made me appreciate a lot of them, and realize how much I will miss some of them. As I was sitting contemplating things the song "The Rose" came on... maybe it wasn't applicable, but it made me tear up and decide that fate was nudging me. I need to do this, and grow and have more routine, and more experiences and not be afraid.
I have so many *other* things going on in my mind that I need to work out... I shouldn't stress over the decisions I *have* made. Maybe I'll work the rest out in my sleep today and then all will be well with the Katie world.