and so it ends..
Just got back from down at the northampton fair. Walked up to see the fireworks and left...
They did not disappoint. unlike people. People keep disappointing me over and over and over.
one good thing is i made a nifty mixxed drink using this funky berry alcohol and some kool-aid. add gatorade bottle i saved and voila! this shit rocks! working hard to find my way to three sheets to the wind. see if i can drink myself into a coma. at least then maybe the nightmares will stop.
in other areas... i feel dead. Honestly. im just waiting for my body to realize that its as dead as my heart and soul are. i take no joy in much of anything these days. *sigh* fireworks the highlight of my entire weekend. how pathetic. what happened to all the parties? all the fun? i feel old. old and tired. ready to pack it in and say i quit.
and yes my musical choice is rather lame but i dont fucking care right now.
why did i even wake up today? or yesterday for that matter? why should i bother to wake up tomorrow
They did not disappoint. unlike people. People keep disappointing me over and over and over.
one good thing is i made a nifty mixxed drink using this funky berry alcohol and some kool-aid. add gatorade bottle i saved and voila! this shit rocks! working hard to find my way to three sheets to the wind. see if i can drink myself into a coma. at least then maybe the nightmares will stop.
in other areas... i feel dead. Honestly. im just waiting for my body to realize that its as dead as my heart and soul are. i take no joy in much of anything these days. *sigh* fireworks the highlight of my entire weekend. how pathetic. what happened to all the parties? all the fun? i feel old. old and tired. ready to pack it in and say i quit.
and yes my musical choice is rather lame but i dont fucking care right now.
why did i even wake up today? or yesterday for that matter? why should i bother to wake up tomorrow