To resume posting or to not resume . . .
. . . after the last craziness with LJ I'm not really sure.
I'd be willing to take votes of those interested.
Thing is . . . if its supposed to be a journal, I can't feel bound to not write some things because they might get back to certain people and hurt them.
I don't REALLY know whos reading it anymore.
So much is just . . . all confusion right now.
Part of me says its their problem.
The other part says that I have an obligation to do right by them.
Fuck it.
I am alive.
I am me.
And, for the love of God, if that isn't good enough you can all blow me.
Currently, there's the -K- situation and the -F- situation. Both of which I'm handling incredibly well considering, well, its me. To one I give a lie, and to the other I lie by way of omission.
Is this fair to either? I'm not really sure anymore. And, more importantly, is this the type of person I want to be. Not be remembered as . . . but simply to be? Am I really being fair to myself even? Added to that the fact that only people in the house and Dre know the whole story, but I'm sure it would be misrepresented on here were I to tell even the good parts.
*sigh*
Maybe I just need to make the damn thing . . . private.
But then I can write in word.
Gar! Taking votes.
-M-
I'd be willing to take votes of those interested.
Thing is . . . if its supposed to be a journal, I can't feel bound to not write some things because they might get back to certain people and hurt them.
I don't REALLY know whos reading it anymore.
So much is just . . . all confusion right now.
Part of me says its their problem.
The other part says that I have an obligation to do right by them.
Fuck it.
I am alive.
I am me.
And, for the love of God, if that isn't good enough you can all blow me.
Currently, there's the -K- situation and the -F- situation. Both of which I'm handling incredibly well considering, well, its me. To one I give a lie, and to the other I lie by way of omission.
Is this fair to either? I'm not really sure anymore. And, more importantly, is this the type of person I want to be. Not be remembered as . . . but simply to be? Am I really being fair to myself even? Added to that the fact that only people in the house and Dre know the whole story, but I'm sure it would be misrepresented on here were I to tell even the good parts.
*sigh*
Maybe I just need to make the damn thing . . . private.
But then I can write in word.
Gar! Taking votes.
-M-