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I've made the realization that no one else here is like me. I dont walk all over people, I value things. I know what a work ethic is. No one else sees what the real world is like it seems. There are so many problems at work. I won't even go into it because it would be a waste of breath and I'll I'd get is a "yeahh :/" Maybe no one knows how to have a conversation with me because you haven't seen it.
My brother's confirmation was today and the bishop was talking about weed. He said we might be recreational smokers but really it's just the start of something bigger. I kind of agree. Then he started talking about our role in the world, And how some people are put on the earth to help atleast one person. I know who I should have helped; but it seems it was impossible now that I think about it. Maybe on top of everything I'm selfish. But all I know is that I'm spread so thin right now. It's like I try to focus on school but I know I'll be working for 3-4 hours after it. And then track gets thrown into the picture, and then family drama. I just need a few hours to my selffffffff.
I'm so tired. Not the kind of sleepy tired. The kind where every part of you is in a different place. Yeah, so can you let me know why I matter to you, because I really feel like I'm not anything anymore. I'm confused.
My brother's confirmation was today and the bishop was talking about weed. He said we might be recreational smokers but really it's just the start of something bigger. I kind of agree. Then he started talking about our role in the world, And how some people are put on the earth to help atleast one person. I know who I should have helped; but it seems it was impossible now that I think about it. Maybe on top of everything I'm selfish. But all I know is that I'm spread so thin right now. It's like I try to focus on school but I know I'll be working for 3-4 hours after it. And then track gets thrown into the picture, and then family drama. I just need a few hours to my selffffffff.
I'm so tired. Not the kind of sleepy tired. The kind where every part of you is in a different place. Yeah, so can you let me know why I matter to you, because I really feel like I'm not anything anymore. I'm confused.