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Howdy kids, howre ya doin?
Seriously, thats great, but weve alot to cover, and if ya dont mind, id like to get started.
So, first and foremost, I MIGHT HAVE A NEW CAR! for those of you who didnt know, my last one actually exploded, like in the movies with slightly less fire. But yeah, after the explosion that car was junk, so we bid adieau to my tiny old red '91 nissan sentra, and, in the same breath, introduce ourselves to the new bronze '97 nissan altima. Everyone say hello. Good.
That aside, im afraid the news turns tragic; Mike will not be coming with me to minnesota. Whats the big deal you might ask. Simple. Without Mike, it appears as tho i am going alone with my father. The problem with that is that i usually do not get along with my dad, and the prospect of being trapped, alone, a hundred miles into the woods with the man, scares me.
More tragic still; Emoness is coming back. Personally, i hate this feeling; i dont understand how people can revel in this quazi-depression like its their job. Bah, this is why i both need and can not have a girlfriend. Id only end up either getting hurt, or hurting someone. Only once in my life have i met someone i felt i really connected with, and sadly, i have no idea what happend to her.
But oh well, such is life. Shit happens, we move on, and are stronger people for it.
Lately ive been on a strange self-enrichment binge. Ive been working out alot, and, not having a car for awhile now, have been biking everywhere. The consequece; i am in pretty good shape. Call me narcissistic, but i like the way my muscles feel. I like to be able to put my hand on my shoulder and feel each individual strand working in perfect synchronicity to move my arm. Ive also been writing alot lately, working on my story, working on a future thesis, i even wrote two songs.
Possibly the most important thing ive done tho (atleast i think), was to make a list. I listed all my issues and fears. It sounds really dumb when you hear about it, but i urge you to try it. Being able to look down at a piece of paper and see a list of what you think is wrong with you (or what IS wrong with you) helps immensely in overcoming said issues and fears. Strange tho how the simplest thing brought about this whole revolution of thought; one of my friends said i was too hard on myself. I of course, being me, put entirely too much thought into that, and finally came to the conclusion that she was, of course, right. From that point i decided the first step in changing that was to figure out why, which is how the list came about.
But yeah kids, thats that for this update, sorry for the uncontrolable ramblefest there, but it needed to be said
On a final note, thank you to my friends, you all help me more than you know.
Seriously, thats great, but weve alot to cover, and if ya dont mind, id like to get started.
So, first and foremost, I MIGHT HAVE A NEW CAR! for those of you who didnt know, my last one actually exploded, like in the movies with slightly less fire. But yeah, after the explosion that car was junk, so we bid adieau to my tiny old red '91 nissan sentra, and, in the same breath, introduce ourselves to the new bronze '97 nissan altima. Everyone say hello. Good.
That aside, im afraid the news turns tragic; Mike will not be coming with me to minnesota. Whats the big deal you might ask. Simple. Without Mike, it appears as tho i am going alone with my father. The problem with that is that i usually do not get along with my dad, and the prospect of being trapped, alone, a hundred miles into the woods with the man, scares me.
More tragic still; Emoness is coming back. Personally, i hate this feeling; i dont understand how people can revel in this quazi-depression like its their job. Bah, this is why i both need and can not have a girlfriend. Id only end up either getting hurt, or hurting someone. Only once in my life have i met someone i felt i really connected with, and sadly, i have no idea what happend to her.
But oh well, such is life. Shit happens, we move on, and are stronger people for it.
Lately ive been on a strange self-enrichment binge. Ive been working out alot, and, not having a car for awhile now, have been biking everywhere. The consequece; i am in pretty good shape. Call me narcissistic, but i like the way my muscles feel. I like to be able to put my hand on my shoulder and feel each individual strand working in perfect synchronicity to move my arm. Ive also been writing alot lately, working on my story, working on a future thesis, i even wrote two songs.
Possibly the most important thing ive done tho (atleast i think), was to make a list. I listed all my issues and fears. It sounds really dumb when you hear about it, but i urge you to try it. Being able to look down at a piece of paper and see a list of what you think is wrong with you (or what IS wrong with you) helps immensely in overcoming said issues and fears. Strange tho how the simplest thing brought about this whole revolution of thought; one of my friends said i was too hard on myself. I of course, being me, put entirely too much thought into that, and finally came to the conclusion that she was, of course, right. From that point i decided the first step in changing that was to figure out why, which is how the list came about.
But yeah kids, thats that for this update, sorry for the uncontrolable ramblefest there, but it needed to be said
On a final note, thank you to my friends, you all help me more than you know.