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hi again kids,
so... whats up with you... right... well... onto the good stuff...
been kinda depressed lately, and i have no clue why. everything has actually been going pretty good of late, no reason for me to be depressed, and yet, here i am...
its interesting, the things we notice about people when we arent blinded by emotion. all those little things one tends to make excuses for are suddenly a whole lot bigger, more pronounced. Its been happening alot these past couple of days, ill look at my roommates and notice things about them that absolutly disgust me now, not because i dislike them, but because i simply do not care. But its not just them, my friends, the ones i grew up with, i feel myself growing distant from them, and i hate it. When im with them tho, the littlest things tend to annoy me, and i cant figure out why... i dont know...
i feel trapped, partly cause i can barely walk. everyone is preassuring me to go to the doctor and get a cast for my knee (fractured, for those of you who didnt know), but i dont like hospitals and doctors these days; too untrustworthy. thats not the only reason im feeling trapped tho... i still dont know whats going on with school, nor do i yet have a place to live next year, i have virtually no direction anymore, no control over anything in my life... sigh... yeah...
on a brighter note, Jen is back! :D that makes me happy, Lora too, Lora and Jen are the only ones keeping me happy these days : D : D : D : D
Jen doesnt feel good tho, and that sucks cause shes cool as hell, she should feel good, and be happy. i wish there as something i could do for her...
Actually... a lot of my good friends have been getting sick or hurt lately, and you should all know, youre all in my thoughts and prayers, whether you have cancer, or something as simple as a cold, i love and need you all, ill get over this eventually, and im sorry if ive been a rotten bastard.
later kids, i think im going to lay down for a bit, my head hurts and our air conditioning is broken.
Have a good one!...
so... whats up with you... right... well... onto the good stuff...
been kinda depressed lately, and i have no clue why. everything has actually been going pretty good of late, no reason for me to be depressed, and yet, here i am...
its interesting, the things we notice about people when we arent blinded by emotion. all those little things one tends to make excuses for are suddenly a whole lot bigger, more pronounced. Its been happening alot these past couple of days, ill look at my roommates and notice things about them that absolutly disgust me now, not because i dislike them, but because i simply do not care. But its not just them, my friends, the ones i grew up with, i feel myself growing distant from them, and i hate it. When im with them tho, the littlest things tend to annoy me, and i cant figure out why... i dont know...
i feel trapped, partly cause i can barely walk. everyone is preassuring me to go to the doctor and get a cast for my knee (fractured, for those of you who didnt know), but i dont like hospitals and doctors these days; too untrustworthy. thats not the only reason im feeling trapped tho... i still dont know whats going on with school, nor do i yet have a place to live next year, i have virtually no direction anymore, no control over anything in my life... sigh... yeah...
on a brighter note, Jen is back! :D that makes me happy, Lora too, Lora and Jen are the only ones keeping me happy these days : D : D : D : D
Jen doesnt feel good tho, and that sucks cause shes cool as hell, she should feel good, and be happy. i wish there as something i could do for her...
Actually... a lot of my good friends have been getting sick or hurt lately, and you should all know, youre all in my thoughts and prayers, whether you have cancer, or something as simple as a cold, i love and need you all, ill get over this eventually, and im sorry if ive been a rotten bastard.
later kids, i think im going to lay down for a bit, my head hurts and our air conditioning is broken.
Have a good one!...