You ever have one of those days/lives?
You know how you feel like your brain works in a certain weird way that isn't the norm. But then you hear from a few people that sometimes their brain works in similar ways, too. So then you rationalize that maybe it is normal, but usually people don't mention it because it's just, you know, normal. But you for some reason feel like picking apart every tiny step in the thought process and then let each step bloom out into a whole tree of possible thoughts related to that branch. And you have trouble just seeing the linear path of the thought progression you thought you were going for because that one came really quick and easy but then you got caught up in all those other interesting alternative strings, and then you've lost interest in that original path because, man, there are some other really cool ideas out there. Like how you can get lost in Wikipedia and the internet because you can visually plug into that huge thought bloom and research and track down even more details of each sub detail, so you can fill in even more leaves on that tree?
And that is the highly abbreviated version of how the internet and quick fix information sharing technology heightens our internal sense of being bipolar or ADHD. Even if you've just got a little touch of those, they have an outlet to build into a major drain on our mental energies.
[But then you realize that some people mentioned they have a similarly functioning brain, but that doesn't make it the "norm" because it's just a handful of people and not everyone. So you realize that you actually are weird after years of just assuming you really were normal.] - this chunk can go at the end of the first paragraph because it is a continuation of that thought, but then wrote the tangent about Wikipedia, which led to the side thought of the internet intensifying ADHD and other mental things related to attention spans and thoughts, and then went back and finished the thought from the first paragraph, but then with this second chunk in there, it isn't such a direct jump from talking about Wikipedia to talking about the internet, so decided to either cut that part or put it down here, but it makes slightly less sense to read it here after you've already read the second paragraph... because the second paragraph (more chunk than paragraph) is a different tangent on the branch than the third paragraph (chunk). They're all related but not necessarily belonging in the same linear thought process.
Does anyone else's brain work like this? To the point where you spend most of your time awake/alive trying to make the thought clouds just shut the fuck up so you can concentrate and enjoy the moment without immediately jumping into thinking about the next 3 dozen possible moments and the 4 dozen ways that the last string of moments could have gone?
Ramble ramble rant rant thought cloud/tree/jumble/ripple/etc blah blah blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I forgot that I used to like to post recent pictures whenever I sporadically posted on here. Did I ever post this one from my last job? I think I posted it on an entry that I left in nonsensical haste awhile back and then removed the next day (which I almost never do because I'm a firm believer in letting things stay once they're out there).
Anyway, it was for a jeans ad:
And fuck proof reading! I know that that is the part where you go thru and straighten out the bends and make your random ramblings make more sense for everyone... add some linear to the cloud. But fuck it, I'm not in the mood. And the whole point was to ponder the jumbling mushrooming nature of the progression of thoughts, so proof reading and rewriting just seems to miss the point! Ok, time to hit submit before I go on another ramble. It just helps to type it out instead of keeping the thoughts on a sloppy sloshy internal loop. Exercise the hyper energy tearing the insides apart! And..... out.
And that is the highly abbreviated version of how the internet and quick fix information sharing technology heightens our internal sense of being bipolar or ADHD. Even if you've just got a little touch of those, they have an outlet to build into a major drain on our mental energies.
[But then you realize that some people mentioned they have a similarly functioning brain, but that doesn't make it the "norm" because it's just a handful of people and not everyone. So you realize that you actually are weird after years of just assuming you really were normal.] - this chunk can go at the end of the first paragraph because it is a continuation of that thought, but then wrote the tangent about Wikipedia, which led to the side thought of the internet intensifying ADHD and other mental things related to attention spans and thoughts, and then went back and finished the thought from the first paragraph, but then with this second chunk in there, it isn't such a direct jump from talking about Wikipedia to talking about the internet, so decided to either cut that part or put it down here, but it makes slightly less sense to read it here after you've already read the second paragraph... because the second paragraph (more chunk than paragraph) is a different tangent on the branch than the third paragraph (chunk). They're all related but not necessarily belonging in the same linear thought process.
Does anyone else's brain work like this? To the point where you spend most of your time awake/alive trying to make the thought clouds just shut the fuck up so you can concentrate and enjoy the moment without immediately jumping into thinking about the next 3 dozen possible moments and the 4 dozen ways that the last string of moments could have gone?
Ramble ramble rant rant thought cloud/tree/jumble/ripple/etc blah blah blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I forgot that I used to like to post recent pictures whenever I sporadically posted on here. Did I ever post this one from my last job? I think I posted it on an entry that I left in nonsensical haste awhile back and then removed the next day (which I almost never do because I'm a firm believer in letting things stay once they're out there).
Anyway, it was for a jeans ad:
And fuck proof reading! I know that that is the part where you go thru and straighten out the bends and make your random ramblings make more sense for everyone... add some linear to the cloud. But fuck it, I'm not in the mood. And the whole point was to ponder the jumbling mushrooming nature of the progression of thoughts, so proof reading and rewriting just seems to miss the point! Ok, time to hit submit before I go on another ramble. It just helps to type it out instead of keeping the thoughts on a sloppy sloshy internal loop. Exercise the hyper energy tearing the insides apart! And..... out.