I miss my baby,,
well, things are slowly getting better. My loan check came in so I'm not living paycheck to paycheck at the moment. Dee owes me $190 that I hope to collect soon to help insure that my bills get paid. I'm still trying to find another job around here. I'm going to call Leslie at the personel office at walmart to see about the open interview times and see if I can get in. It isn't the greatest place to work, but at least it's closer to home. I hate FYE...with a passion. I'm waiting for them to write me up for not selling magazines...they'd get my two weeks as my response. Assholes. Anyways...I have a killer headache. I've had one for about 4 hours and I don't know why. I need a haircut..I think I'll go wednesday. Yep, going wednesday, just called to make the appointment. I need to get ahold of brandon for the RG&E money. I really want a new digital camera but I don't want to spend over $150...but I still want a decent camera...anyone have any ideas?
Everything in my life is getting better...but I still feel like one of these days I'm going to wake up and Dave is going to be gone. He keeps telling me that I'm crazy for even thinking about something like that...but I'm petrified. I know I've been a bitch lately, and I've appologized for it. He knows I'm under a lot of stress, but still that's no excuse. I'm scared he's going to find someone better...just like Jared did..and be gone...and I need his love in my life. I have't ever cared about someone this much, this fast. He's my world and I'm so grateful to have him in my life, as much as I don't show it, it's true. I just hope that we overcome this stressful period in our lives and continue to get closer..I hate that we can't hang out and be together more..I feel like I don't ever see him and it rips my heart out. When we do see each other, both of us stressed out about school or work or something..so it's hard to enjoy each others company completely. Although...he did say that he was going to come over tomorrow night and cook me dinner and watch movies with me...and other suprises too...so hopefully that goes well because I'm really looking forward to it.
Ok..that's enough for now..I can't look at this computer screen anymore...
Everything in my life is getting better...but I still feel like one of these days I'm going to wake up and Dave is going to be gone. He keeps telling me that I'm crazy for even thinking about something like that...but I'm petrified. I know I've been a bitch lately, and I've appologized for it. He knows I'm under a lot of stress, but still that's no excuse. I'm scared he's going to find someone better...just like Jared did..and be gone...and I need his love in my life. I have't ever cared about someone this much, this fast. He's my world and I'm so grateful to have him in my life, as much as I don't show it, it's true. I just hope that we overcome this stressful period in our lives and continue to get closer..I hate that we can't hang out and be together more..I feel like I don't ever see him and it rips my heart out. When we do see each other, both of us stressed out about school or work or something..so it's hard to enjoy each others company completely. Although...he did say that he was going to come over tomorrow night and cook me dinner and watch movies with me...and other suprises too...so hopefully that goes well because I'm really looking forward to it.
Ok..that's enough for now..I can't look at this computer screen anymore...