Placophobia - Fear of tombstones

[angry_yams]

I wish my moods wouldn't flucuate so much. I'd like to stay happy for at least 2 days. Today was crap. As soon as I woke up I knew twas a crap day. I didn't feel like acting Romeo and Juliet in english, so I passed. At least I finished the weekend homework in that class. In spanish, I got a few laughs. We were conjugating verbs and Jared noticed that ganaria sounded like gonorrhea so we laughed a bit. Pe was boring. Just throwing softballs at one another for the whole period in the hotness. Sociology was terrible. I was making fringe for my scarf and Mr. Hansen noticed so he stopped talking and stared at me, so I looked up and he was like "Well, I've never seen anyone make clothing while I'm lecturing before." He went on and embarassed me more. I was going to cry, though I was laughing outside. I just masked my feelings that whole class. Then we went in the computer lab and Paul came in. I felt so shy. I wanted to say hi, but I couldn't muster up the courage. Math was wonderful. Good things always happen in math. Ms. Dumas let us go outside and work on homework. The weather was lovely, not too hot, not too cold. Science was ok. Just a bunch of fucks in their. I am hoping the LAX game tonight will cheer me up alot. Yet, I am scared. Dani asked if I could drive her there and, being the good friend I am, I said I would. Now I regret that because I'm turning into a ride bitch. I want to tell Dani that she has to pay for at least some of my ticket because I did her a favour and drove her there. But I know I can't do it! I can never stand up for myself. Never ever ever. I fear if I tell her that she will get mad and say no. Or say yes but think in her mind I'm a bitch and won't talk to me again. It's a lose, lose situation. I am half hoping she'll just figure it out on her own. But hoping is for losers, like me, who just sit back and wait for others to do things for them. Oh well, I guess I will be a ride bitch for the rest of my life and hate myself for being one.

best friends means i pulled the trigger, best friends means you get what you deserve

-x-Ryde Biotch 4 Lyfe-x-