selling words, borrowing time, stealing looks
i've been wanting to write for a while...do the whole taking stock of last year and setting goals for this one. but, as usually is the case, things are busy and sleep is more important than pretty much all other activities.
yesterday i was having one of my emotionally fragile days. i know the depression comes from being sick. such awareness doesn't really change the situation.
today is better. i started using my loom.
so. trite though it may be...
i've been thinking for some time about what 2007 was. i realized that i spent most of last year unhappy. i didn't necessarily acknowledge that at the time. too much time was devoted to worrying, delaying, hating, mourning. there was personal, family, relationship, and work drama.
that being said, it wasn't all bad. some of it was amazing. good and bad, i've grown. every year, i find myself in a better place than i was in the year before. so, uphill battle that it may seem at times...well, at least i'm moving up.
in summary...
i started out last year unemployed. i quit my serving job just before new year's during another bout of pain induced depression. i started my second semester at truman and then my second year at scooters in march. the next few months were the roughest. getting burnt out on school, hating my job, getting dumped. in august all of my family was together for the first time in eight years for my dad's 60th birthday. it was the first time in five years that my brother, sister and i had all been together, as well. september was when the year decided to make a late recovery. i met ben.*** started my third semester at truman. ben and i went to toronto. more stress between school and work. i turned 21 and spent time with my favourite people and had a dinosaur pinata. scooter's closed for the season and then the semester finished. christmas was crazy and i went down to indiana for the first time in forever to visit shane. started a new job working with kaicy again.
***that's such a short sentence, but could be the start of so many words. i will probably write more about him at some point, but not just yet. i think part of the reason i worry about writing anything is that i don't want to seem...vapid, or unable to be self reliant. yet, these are silly worries if you know me... i am neither of those things. basically, i'm neurotic.
plans for this year...
get my associates degree at the end of next semester. start an online business with margaret with far reaching plans for an eventual storefront. go to las vegas with ben over spring break. start being more healthy and don't see doctors. work more on friendships.
it's cold out here in the computer area. this will have to do.
yesterday i was having one of my emotionally fragile days. i know the depression comes from being sick. such awareness doesn't really change the situation.
today is better. i started using my loom.
so. trite though it may be...
i've been thinking for some time about what 2007 was. i realized that i spent most of last year unhappy. i didn't necessarily acknowledge that at the time. too much time was devoted to worrying, delaying, hating, mourning. there was personal, family, relationship, and work drama.
that being said, it wasn't all bad. some of it was amazing. good and bad, i've grown. every year, i find myself in a better place than i was in the year before. so, uphill battle that it may seem at times...well, at least i'm moving up.
in summary...
i started out last year unemployed. i quit my serving job just before new year's during another bout of pain induced depression. i started my second semester at truman and then my second year at scooters in march. the next few months were the roughest. getting burnt out on school, hating my job, getting dumped. in august all of my family was together for the first time in eight years for my dad's 60th birthday. it was the first time in five years that my brother, sister and i had all been together, as well. september was when the year decided to make a late recovery. i met ben.*** started my third semester at truman. ben and i went to toronto. more stress between school and work. i turned 21 and spent time with my favourite people and had a dinosaur pinata. scooter's closed for the season and then the semester finished. christmas was crazy and i went down to indiana for the first time in forever to visit shane. started a new job working with kaicy again.
***that's such a short sentence, but could be the start of so many words. i will probably write more about him at some point, but not just yet. i think part of the reason i worry about writing anything is that i don't want to seem...vapid, or unable to be self reliant. yet, these are silly worries if you know me... i am neither of those things. basically, i'm neurotic.
plans for this year...
get my associates degree at the end of next semester. start an online business with margaret with far reaching plans for an eventual storefront. go to las vegas with ben over spring break. start being more healthy and don't see doctors. work more on friendships.
it's cold out here in the computer area. this will have to do.