I forgot
about newport. i really dont even know what to do with myself. I thought id have a lot of fun as soon as i returned to newport, but everyone is to busy working, or moved away, and i dont have a car to go see people. Im kinda frustrated by my family right now, they're wierder than when i left. I mean i have a lot to say, ive always been kinda political but no one in my house seems to know what im talking about, or more likely give a shit. So i guess i can't rant at them, ive failed already in that sense. So i really don't know what the fuck im doing here then. I thought i felt this sense that something good was going to happen when i got back home, but nothing has fufilled that feeling yet. Ive just been sitting at home, doing pretty much squat. Ive hung out with a few old friends, but they all seem to have branched off from eachother, forming new friend groups with new people. I thought that by returning here i might be able to fall into a relationship i had always been too shy to try to get into, but instead i realized that i always build shit up in my head in my own little fantasy world and dissolution shatters when im actually here. Well, the grass is greener here and it doesn't fucking matter.