random thoughts....
I was thinking about things as I always do, my always over analytical brain sometimes works overtime!! I ask for honesty from people so much, ever since I could remember. One hard thing for me to realize growing up that there are some people who just cant give it! I kept thinking its a default for people to genuinely want to be honest. This was hard for me understand growing up the way I did, it was a given in my family. I still struggle with the fact that some people will go out of there way to be so dishonest it makes my head spin. I will tell you right now I try to go out of my way to be honest, I am not saying I am a saint and never lie I am a human and to err is human to forgive devine, right? I try at least which is more than I can say for a LOT of the people around me.
What really burst my bubble is when I actually started getting some honesty. I didnt understand why I was hurting? I soon realized the truth hurts sometimes. Then I realized again the truth hurts less than dishonesty. So I would rather feel the pain of honesty than the pain of finding out someone lied!! If any one has ever seen the movie braveheart...a little to long for me but one scene in that movie proves my point when Mel Gibson's character realizes the bad guy he is chasing is his best friend...the look on his face is the look of when a friend hurts you to the core. That look is the look of pain from dishonesty.
My only complaint is I am around such deceit is my lack of ability to recognize it and get burned over and over again. Why am I so trusting, sometimes so much to a default. If I could only figure that one out.
What really burst my bubble is when I actually started getting some honesty. I didnt understand why I was hurting? I soon realized the truth hurts sometimes. Then I realized again the truth hurts less than dishonesty. So I would rather feel the pain of honesty than the pain of finding out someone lied!! If any one has ever seen the movie braveheart...a little to long for me but one scene in that movie proves my point when Mel Gibson's character realizes the bad guy he is chasing is his best friend...the look on his face is the look of when a friend hurts you to the core. That look is the look of pain from dishonesty.
My only complaint is I am around such deceit is my lack of ability to recognize it and get burned over and over again. Why am I so trusting, sometimes so much to a default. If I could only figure that one out.