get back on the horse.
2008 has been pretty good so far. Nothing really remarkable.
So the first weekend of the New Year I was supposed to go on a snow trip with a bunch of Vallejos, but the huge storm kept us from going. BOO. But the good news is that the following Monday, we went up to Tahoe and the snow was spectacular!
Anyway, this past week I had my first audition for Broadway by the Bay. Now that I'm all graduated and only have work to look forward to, I figured it would be fun to start auditioning for local theatre. So, I signed up to audition for Little Shop of Horrors.. whatever right? No expectations, just a good experience. So I get there at like 4:15, all ruffled up from work and looking like shit, printed out music sheets that are probably too blurry for the pianist, no practice whatsoever...
I go in the waiting room, see people with their fancy resumes, professional headshots, all like professional and shit. I'm like WTF. Why am I here? I finish filling out my application and I go up to the guy signing people in and I just go.. "Um, I don't know if this is out of my league, but do you encourage new or inexperienced people to audition?" And of course he's like "yeah, we welcome everyone. Look at your resume, it's not too bad... yadayadayada." So my number comes up and time to go in.
I've never done ANYTHING to this caliber and found my self shaking as I walked in. I felt like my throat closed up too. So I hand in my ghetto printed out music sheet to the pianist, walk to the white line where I stand before 6-7 people who were probably staring me down thinking "WHAT THE FUCK" when I stood there in my Jeans, Uggs and crossword tee. The director was very nice and says hello, I mention that this is my first time auditioning here or doing anything close to this type of style of audition.. and they're all welcome, bla bla blah.
Time for my song.. which I was shaky all the way through, messed up and got off key. Towards the end, I just had this huge smirk on my face and ready to hide in a pillow. The group clapped, looked encouraging, I apologized for the complete mess I created with tears ready to roll down my face full of embarrassment.
Until the director of the show stops me and says: "Listen. All I've heard today are big voices, and they're great, but they are forgettable. Today, you showed us a little more: vulnerability. And because of that I'll remember you over all those big voices I heard today." So those embarassing tears turned into happy tears and I walked away feeling a whole lot better.
Stupid, but better. Embarassed, but better. At least I know to prepare, maybe look a bit nicer, and have a bit more confidence the next time around. This was completely nerve-wracking, but it just felt so good to just audition. Granted this audition was a disaster and I fell big and hard off that horse, but you can't help but want to get back up again. The next audition is in April, for Thoroughly Modern Millie, but I need to take some dance classes since it's heavy on choreography... The one in August or something, is for Into the Woods. I really hope they do remember me and then see a complete 180 from there.
So yea, 2008 has basically started a bit rocky. No new postings in the Bare life, so I'm sitting along waiting for the right job to come.
My resolution hasn't broken yet because I've been working out everyday, do the Weight Watchers point system... I'm on my 3rd week, haven't seen significant results, but I do have more energy and I'm really portioning out my food options. My little muffin top is flattening out a bit which is good news.
My debts are getting paid off and I'm really saving some $$. Debt fucken SUCKS and I can't wait to get out of it. I'm pretty lucky compared to other folks who have school debts and loans to pay off. I mean I just have my CC debt that kind grew when I was working and slaving away at my internship...
So yea, Rebuiliding period I'd like to say. I'm gonna work hard, play harder. Hope for a job (a better one) sometime soon... If I decide to go back to school, it won't be for another year or 2. That's another horse to consider getting back on...
So the first weekend of the New Year I was supposed to go on a snow trip with a bunch of Vallejos, but the huge storm kept us from going. BOO. But the good news is that the following Monday, we went up to Tahoe and the snow was spectacular!
Anyway, this past week I had my first audition for Broadway by the Bay. Now that I'm all graduated and only have work to look forward to, I figured it would be fun to start auditioning for local theatre. So, I signed up to audition for Little Shop of Horrors.. whatever right? No expectations, just a good experience. So I get there at like 4:15, all ruffled up from work and looking like shit, printed out music sheets that are probably too blurry for the pianist, no practice whatsoever...
I go in the waiting room, see people with their fancy resumes, professional headshots, all like professional and shit. I'm like WTF. Why am I here? I finish filling out my application and I go up to the guy signing people in and I just go.. "Um, I don't know if this is out of my league, but do you encourage new or inexperienced people to audition?" And of course he's like "yeah, we welcome everyone. Look at your resume, it's not too bad... yadayadayada." So my number comes up and time to go in.
I've never done ANYTHING to this caliber and found my self shaking as I walked in. I felt like my throat closed up too. So I hand in my ghetto printed out music sheet to the pianist, walk to the white line where I stand before 6-7 people who were probably staring me down thinking "WHAT THE FUCK" when I stood there in my Jeans, Uggs and crossword tee. The director was very nice and says hello, I mention that this is my first time auditioning here or doing anything close to this type of style of audition.. and they're all welcome, bla bla blah.
Time for my song.. which I was shaky all the way through, messed up and got off key. Towards the end, I just had this huge smirk on my face and ready to hide in a pillow. The group clapped, looked encouraging, I apologized for the complete mess I created with tears ready to roll down my face full of embarrassment.
Until the director of the show stops me and says: "Listen. All I've heard today are big voices, and they're great, but they are forgettable. Today, you showed us a little more: vulnerability. And because of that I'll remember you over all those big voices I heard today." So those embarassing tears turned into happy tears and I walked away feeling a whole lot better.
Stupid, but better. Embarassed, but better. At least I know to prepare, maybe look a bit nicer, and have a bit more confidence the next time around. This was completely nerve-wracking, but it just felt so good to just audition. Granted this audition was a disaster and I fell big and hard off that horse, but you can't help but want to get back up again. The next audition is in April, for Thoroughly Modern Millie, but I need to take some dance classes since it's heavy on choreography... The one in August or something, is for Into the Woods. I really hope they do remember me and then see a complete 180 from there.
So yea, 2008 has basically started a bit rocky. No new postings in the Bare life, so I'm sitting along waiting for the right job to come.
My resolution hasn't broken yet because I've been working out everyday, do the Weight Watchers point system... I'm on my 3rd week, haven't seen significant results, but I do have more energy and I'm really portioning out my food options. My little muffin top is flattening out a bit which is good news.
My debts are getting paid off and I'm really saving some $$. Debt fucken SUCKS and I can't wait to get out of it. I'm pretty lucky compared to other folks who have school debts and loans to pay off. I mean I just have my CC debt that kind grew when I was working and slaving away at my internship...
So yea, Rebuiliding period I'd like to say. I'm gonna work hard, play harder. Hope for a job (a better one) sometime soon... If I decide to go back to school, it won't be for another year or 2. That's another horse to consider getting back on...