scared....
I am getting even more scared about this relationship shit....lordy....god...
I dont' want to get hurt again ..and I know it is basically impossible that he would ever hurt me ...but it is like hard for me to accept it .. i guess i held so deep that i would never put myself in this situation again..so i would never have to worry about anything again...
I wish so much tha I didnt go through the shit i have....it has fucked up everything that I could have good in my life...
I stick to finding the psycho ones and keep them in my life...to keep myself miserable... I thionk
and then I find a good ...and I hurt him, my family, and my friends by continuing to constantly think about this person...
of course I am always gonna care about tommy..there isn o way in this world i couldn't ....i know that i could be stronger and keep him out of discussion and try to keep him off my mind...but that is why simply i wanted to make things civil with him and i....these rumors and lies are insane...it is crazy..I know that it is basically impossible for me to be friends with him....but I would do a lot ...just to have us on a normal talking ...no hate basis...i worry about him a lot ...alot lot....and to know that he is alright....would make me feel better...
urggg...i sit here and i ponder what is going on with my life...lol...
i don't know what i am happy or sad?? LOL
I am happy for many things and than I sad for many too...ad I do the positive...and then i just get torn down by something...I need to see the people that make me happy more often...
i really really do...
I leave July 16th...and there is a huge chance that next summer I am not even cooming back to novi...
oh and again...
my best friend is getting married...WHAT THE FUCK LORDY LOO..HOLY SHIT,....WOAH....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
MARRIAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REMEMBER A YEAR AGO..HER AND I SAYING WE WERE NEVER GETTING MARRIED..EVER....
I DON' WANT TO GO GROW UP!!!!
I dont' want to get hurt again ..and I know it is basically impossible that he would ever hurt me ...but it is like hard for me to accept it .. i guess i held so deep that i would never put myself in this situation again..so i would never have to worry about anything again...
I wish so much tha I didnt go through the shit i have....it has fucked up everything that I could have good in my life...
I stick to finding the psycho ones and keep them in my life...to keep myself miserable... I thionk
and then I find a good ...and I hurt him, my family, and my friends by continuing to constantly think about this person...
of course I am always gonna care about tommy..there isn o way in this world i couldn't ....i know that i could be stronger and keep him out of discussion and try to keep him off my mind...but that is why simply i wanted to make things civil with him and i....these rumors and lies are insane...it is crazy..I know that it is basically impossible for me to be friends with him....but I would do a lot ...just to have us on a normal talking ...no hate basis...i worry about him a lot ...alot lot....and to know that he is alright....would make me feel better...
urggg...i sit here and i ponder what is going on with my life...lol...
i don't know what i am happy or sad?? LOL
I am happy for many things and than I sad for many too...ad I do the positive...and then i just get torn down by something...I need to see the people that make me happy more often...
i really really do...
I leave July 16th...and there is a huge chance that next summer I am not even cooming back to novi...
oh and again...
my best friend is getting married...WHAT THE FUCK LORDY LOO..HOLY SHIT,....WOAH....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
MARRIAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REMEMBER A YEAR AGO..HER AND I SAYING WE WERE NEVER GETTING MARRIED..EVER....
I DON' WANT TO GO GROW UP!!!!