New Years ......and still missing you

[anglfangs]

Sooooo, yeah New Years eve is here again. Of course my cousin/bestfriend is on my mind since she died New Years day, it has been 5 years tomorrow since she passed. I still have trouble even wanting to go out or have fun tonight. Why am I still dwelling on this? Probably because she took a piece of me when she left....that is all I can figure. I miss that part of life, I miss my bestfriend, I miss my sister (I considered her one), that person who really knew all of me, and accepted all my faults. I just dont feel like I will ever be able to open up to anyone friend wise like I did her. I knew the girl my whole life she was more of a soulmate than anything.....this song is the closest to how I really feel

[Dr. Dre]
This one is for my brother, Tyree, R.I.P.
...
A message to God 
..

Since you finishin em early, what posessed you to start him?
We made a vow - later we'll regret til death do us part
Lord, I thought we was made for each other
You shouldn't connect those, made to be taken away from each other
Now what I'm supposed to do? I'm only half the man that I was
I'll never last, cause my better half is up there with you
You knew what you was doin when you made us; so with all due respect
you coulda forgave him, you didn't have to take him
He can take the game with him, cause he defines the word
The one who puts the G in it, who you think put me in it?
I'm feelin like my whole world is blinded - wonderin why
Cryin, pourin out my heart, pourin out liquor behind it
We fought like brothers, somethin we never should do
We coulda used time spent arguin tellin the truth
He had talent too - I had plans on watchin him grow
Don't know what hurts more - seein him leave, or watchin him go

[Mary J. Blige]
Listen listen listen.. (listen) whoahh (listen)
Listen listen listen.. (better listen) whoahh-oahhh-oahhh
Listen listen listen.. [harmonizing]
Listen.. mmm-mmm-mmm

If you wanna know why.. why I live my life
The way that I do.. cause I got to get this money
So don't worry about me.. cause I know my way around
I'm just hustlin everyday, runnin this race, makin this paper

Youse a soldier, you're probably packin heat up there
Met up with homies from the street, and got deep up there
If you only knew the way I felt before they ruined the crew
I thought I learned from Eazy, now I'm goin through it with you
We lost a thug, a son, and a father
I spoke to your son, the other day, and told him Uncle Dre got him
The Lord must be accidentally pulling your file
cause I'm still paging you, 911, straight in denial
Prayin you get it, but no man can choose the card he was dealt
You either quit, or you gon' play it like you get it
I done been through all emotions, from in shock, to keepin a poker face
to straight breakin down and showin all emotions
I'm anxious to believe in real G's don't cry
If that's the truth, then I'm realizin I ain't no gangsta
It's just not me, but you know I'ma always ride wit you
I miss you, sometimes I wish I just died wit you

Listen listen listen.. (listen) whoahh (listen)

If you wanna know why.. why I live my life
The way that I do.. cause I got to get this money
So don't worry about me.. don't worry, don't worry worry
I'm just hustlin everyday, runnin this race, makin this paper

I'm tryin to tell you somethin good
Don't get caught up in the hood
Yeahhh-hah, yeahhh-hah, aooooooh
if you don't know why..
you gotta find out the reason why..
brother.. brother..

I love you Frani, I miss you and always will.....dont forget to watch over me at least every once in a while.

till net time......Angl : (