I'm on the edge of my breath
I haven't written in a long time, not only on here, but in real life as well. I almost forgot how good it feels or how theraputic it is. For someone like me, who has problems conveying thoughts and emotions and basically anything i really care about verbally, to write has become such a way of life. I don't know what I'd do if it weren't for the fact that at the end of the day if something is really bothering me than I can come home and write it out and it's gone and i don't have to deal with it anymore. I would go crazy if I left it all bottled up inside, which was what was beginning to happen since the whole fiasco happened a month or so ago, I just stopped, i went on just going and not caring about anything, I became a robot. Today it just spilled out of me, and it felt good.
People always are telling you to write what you know and until now I always just thought that was the most cliche sack of shite ever. But it's true, some of the best things that i've written were about self-discovery and what i knew, if i make it up than it doesn't mean anything to me and then it's crap. Some of my best stuff people will may never see because it's so personal. Once again Jason Mraz puts it best when he says.“Just start writing, and don’t read it. Before you know it you’ll have barfed onto your paper all kinds of things you’d hoped to do. Or you’ll realize that you are doing it, or will do it. That’s how I discovered [writing].”That's what I did today. Maybe I'll post it later. I don't know, I haven't read it yet so I don't know how much shite it is yet.
So this was about nothing now wasn't it?
School got out. That's good, I'm a junior now. everything else is just boring. I stayed in bed most of the day for the past 2 days and watched the Newlyweds and Real World - Road Rules Challenge marathons. I've amounted to absolutely nothing and it feels good since on Monday I have to start Driver's Education.
I'm tired.
People always are telling you to write what you know and until now I always just thought that was the most cliche sack of shite ever. But it's true, some of the best things that i've written were about self-discovery and what i knew, if i make it up than it doesn't mean anything to me and then it's crap. Some of my best stuff people will may never see because it's so personal. Once again Jason Mraz puts it best when he says.“Just start writing, and don’t read it. Before you know it you’ll have barfed onto your paper all kinds of things you’d hoped to do. Or you’ll realize that you are doing it, or will do it. That’s how I discovered [writing].”That's what I did today. Maybe I'll post it later. I don't know, I haven't read it yet so I don't know how much shite it is yet.
So this was about nothing now wasn't it?
School got out. That's good, I'm a junior now. everything else is just boring. I stayed in bed most of the day for the past 2 days and watched the Newlyweds and Real World - Road Rules Challenge marathons. I've amounted to absolutely nothing and it feels good since on Monday I have to start Driver's Education.
I'm tired.