yay for school
Yay for school.. I think that is the only positive thing right now so I am trying to really focus and meditate on the thought of it.
Chris said " this isnt working out" and explained that he could never trust me and that I have too many guy friends... I need to learn to start dealing with girls better so I can have a healthly relationship... every guy I have dated has had problems with my friends. Maybe they think its my friends and it is just me. I dont know.. I really start to second guess the things I have felt in life... were they real?... I feel as if now since there is no going back, that the moments of importance he took with him. I just feel really empty. I know I NEED time but I want time to go by faster I want to get over feeling so useless and hopeless. I want to feel as if I could conquer what I set out to do. I want to feel loved.. I want to feel his love.. I hate this.
I hate these feelings
SChool school school.. just think about school... School school school
Chris said " this isnt working out" and explained that he could never trust me and that I have too many guy friends... I need to learn to start dealing with girls better so I can have a healthly relationship... every guy I have dated has had problems with my friends. Maybe they think its my friends and it is just me. I dont know.. I really start to second guess the things I have felt in life... were they real?... I feel as if now since there is no going back, that the moments of importance he took with him. I just feel really empty. I know I NEED time but I want time to go by faster I want to get over feeling so useless and hopeless. I want to feel as if I could conquer what I set out to do. I want to feel loved.. I want to feel his love.. I hate this.
I hate these feelings
SChool school school.. just think about school... School school school