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God fucking hates me. He must. Why is he putting me through all of this shit. I don't understand. What have I ever done so wrong.
My uncle got put on a respirator tonight. He's not breathing by himself because of the medicine that they are putting him on. I don't understand what is happening. He was fine a few days ago. He's not aloud to die. He can't. I will be left with nothing to live for if he's not here. He is the only person who I can count on no matter what right now and God is taking him away from me. I don't understand why. He's all I have left in life and he's going to be gone soon. He can't be gone. He wouldn't leave me alone and by myself with nothing. He wouldn't he loves me to much. Right. I mean he knows that I'd be lost without him and he cares way to much about me to do that to me. Somebody help me. Somebody do like magic and make him well. I need him. Nobody understands how much I need him. Him and my aunt Lou have taken the spot for me that grandma did. I can't lose either one of them. I just can't.
Somebody please tell me it's gonna be okay. Promise me that he is going to be okay. I need him. I love him so much. He's the only person that can hold me up like he does. No one will ever be like him to me. Why is this happening. Everything in life was going so well. and now this. What the fuck is wrong with this world. Can't they just let me be happy for a minute.
My dad is spitting up blood because he got jumped 4 times last night and now this. I can't deal with this right now. Everything is just going so bad. I need someone to just hug me and tell me that everything is alright. I need a person that I talk to every night before I go to bed. Why can't he be here. I need him here with me. I need him to just be here.
Please dear god help him. Don't take him away from me. I am begging you. If I need to I will get down on my knees and beg. I won't do anything bad anymore. I won't touch another drug for the rest of my life. I won't pick up any kind of liquor. I won't cuss. I'll go back to school if that's what it takes. I will go to church every sunday and every wednesday. I will be a damn nun if that's what it takes, but please dont' take him from me. I need him now more than ever. I can't explain what he means to me. Without him I am nothing. Please dear god help my uncle through this. Please. I will do anything. You can take me instead of him. He is such a great person and there is so much left for him to do and prove before his life is taken. I will pray every night. Say the rosary every day. I will do anything to keep him around. Please do this for me. If you do this for me I won't ask you for anything ever again. I need him. and well i can't live without him.
My uncle got put on a respirator tonight. He's not breathing by himself because of the medicine that they are putting him on. I don't understand what is happening. He was fine a few days ago. He's not aloud to die. He can't. I will be left with nothing to live for if he's not here. He is the only person who I can count on no matter what right now and God is taking him away from me. I don't understand why. He's all I have left in life and he's going to be gone soon. He can't be gone. He wouldn't leave me alone and by myself with nothing. He wouldn't he loves me to much. Right. I mean he knows that I'd be lost without him and he cares way to much about me to do that to me. Somebody help me. Somebody do like magic and make him well. I need him. Nobody understands how much I need him. Him and my aunt Lou have taken the spot for me that grandma did. I can't lose either one of them. I just can't.
Somebody please tell me it's gonna be okay. Promise me that he is going to be okay. I need him. I love him so much. He's the only person that can hold me up like he does. No one will ever be like him to me. Why is this happening. Everything in life was going so well. and now this. What the fuck is wrong with this world. Can't they just let me be happy for a minute.
My dad is spitting up blood because he got jumped 4 times last night and now this. I can't deal with this right now. Everything is just going so bad. I need someone to just hug me and tell me that everything is alright. I need a person that I talk to every night before I go to bed. Why can't he be here. I need him here with me. I need him to just be here.
Please dear god help him. Don't take him away from me. I am begging you. If I need to I will get down on my knees and beg. I won't do anything bad anymore. I won't touch another drug for the rest of my life. I won't pick up any kind of liquor. I won't cuss. I'll go back to school if that's what it takes. I will go to church every sunday and every wednesday. I will be a damn nun if that's what it takes, but please dont' take him from me. I need him now more than ever. I can't explain what he means to me. Without him I am nothing. Please dear god help my uncle through this. Please. I will do anything. You can take me instead of him. He is such a great person and there is so much left for him to do and prove before his life is taken. I will pray every night. Say the rosary every day. I will do anything to keep him around. Please do this for me. If you do this for me I won't ask you for anything ever again. I need him. and well i can't live without him.