happy st. patrick's day!
i've been in the weirdest mood all day... beth was kinda irratated all day so i kept to myself so i wouldn't get into any kinda of trouble... rather introverted for myself. (maybe partly cuz i knew i wasn't getting any of my traditional st. patty's day stuff... kinda disappointing)
a lot of stuff's gone one since the last post.. if i were to catch up on it all, it would prolly be the longest entry. florida was alright.. things coulda worked out better.. we'll just see about the rest i guess....
and i've been thinking a lot... i'm so confused now... i'm not sure what's going on really anymore.. i guess i just shouldn't worry about it... whatever works out is meant to be, right?
in the meantime, i plan on trying to keep myself busy... i need the extra money so i told keith i'd like to do more catering... donnette asked me tuesday if i wanted to some catering job this saturday... it's pretty easy, buffet style.. at least it'll give me something to do.
i can't believe my birthday is less then a month away... somehow it came up in conversation with a friend adam and i... now i'm all kinda bummed about it again.... i just tend to end up disappointed on my birthdays now and have for quite a few years... i don't really see the point in getting my hopes up that it's gonna be any different. ehh... oh well i guess... maybe somehting good will work out.. who's knows.
anyway... my but hurts and i don't really feel like being on the computer anymore, so i'll talk to y'all lata!
*mela*
*random*
::lyrics::
~into the darkness~
i feel helpless, waiting
could this all be the end?
coming down all at once
Am i losing you?
no way out
(ch)until this all crashes down
i'll hold on
into the darkness
not knowing at all
are you out there waiting
wondering about me
i've never felt so alone
as i do now
hold on to me
(one more good one)
~in dreams~
every time i speak
wipe away all these tears
living every day in fear
finding nothing but empty
(ch)wide awake
and dreaming
is this what is seems
close my eyes forever
i'll wake up
desperation strips me
these last days have not
been free
stealing every breath
from me
whispering defeat
and i see it in your eyes
long gone
and i feel it in your heart
long gone
and i see it in your eyes
long gone, long gone
a lot of stuff's gone one since the last post.. if i were to catch up on it all, it would prolly be the longest entry. florida was alright.. things coulda worked out better.. we'll just see about the rest i guess....
and i've been thinking a lot... i'm so confused now... i'm not sure what's going on really anymore.. i guess i just shouldn't worry about it... whatever works out is meant to be, right?
in the meantime, i plan on trying to keep myself busy... i need the extra money so i told keith i'd like to do more catering... donnette asked me tuesday if i wanted to some catering job this saturday... it's pretty easy, buffet style.. at least it'll give me something to do.
i can't believe my birthday is less then a month away... somehow it came up in conversation with a friend adam and i... now i'm all kinda bummed about it again.... i just tend to end up disappointed on my birthdays now and have for quite a few years... i don't really see the point in getting my hopes up that it's gonna be any different. ehh... oh well i guess... maybe somehting good will work out.. who's knows.
anyway... my but hurts and i don't really feel like being on the computer anymore, so i'll talk to y'all lata!
*mela*
*random*
::lyrics::
~into the darkness~
i feel helpless, waiting
could this all be the end?
coming down all at once
Am i losing you?
no way out
(ch)until this all crashes down
i'll hold on
into the darkness
not knowing at all
are you out there waiting
wondering about me
i've never felt so alone
as i do now
hold on to me
(one more good one)
~in dreams~
every time i speak
wipe away all these tears
living every day in fear
finding nothing but empty
(ch)wide awake
and dreaming
is this what is seems
close my eyes forever
i'll wake up
desperation strips me
these last days have not
been free
stealing every breath
from me
whispering defeat
and i see it in your eyes
long gone
and i feel it in your heart
long gone
and i see it in your eyes
long gone, long gone