'not dead yet'
not too much going on.... ok.. well i lied... a lot has been going on. I was in Sandy's sister's wedding and we al had so much fun! the week before we had gone on the bachelorette party.. we went F1 cart racing and went and saw an all male review... *sigh* johnny rocket... lol.....
there's been a lot of changes in my love life. it's weird. but i mean, i guess i really shoulda realized everything about what i felt before... i just didn't want to admit it... what i do want- good luck.... i'm not sure if i'm being fed a bunch of shit or not, but whatever... one day one thing, then a vacation, then all the sudden a complete crazy notion... but i really have no say. never was mine to begin with *shrug* anyway. i'm just dealing with it now... i need to just "be" for a while.
but i've learned a whole lot recently and i know what i feel and think a lot better now. and i swear to god my intuition is kicking in at 22...
i did manage to end up in virginia beach for a couple days... it was neat. i liked it down there a lot and would live down there, but the whole thing there would prolly get old and whatnot... not that i have to live at virginia beach itself. VA was really pretty. i dunno... i know my options.. all the cool people live there anyway! (love ya adam! and it's true). brad keeps telling me to move to aspen... or i can wait until he gets back around here to boston or providence in a few months or so...
gary quit drinking and wants to quit smoking too. he's trying to be a better step dad towards me.... it's weird... i wish it woulda happened when i was younger and it was more important to me... after going so long with him not being there for me like he could of, i just got used to it... but i see that he's putting the effort in... plus it helps that chris is around all summer... we're gonna bond this summer... we went the casino this past weekend. we had a good time (plus desiree came down to go out with us!)
this coming monday i have the kids from the new camp coming to the bakery and i'm working on some more stuff for them to do while they're in town. i'm really excited.
anyway, i'm sleepy and i've been on the phone too much today and running around... blah... i'm not even sure i really know what day it is....
*nite*
mela
there's been a lot of changes in my love life. it's weird. but i mean, i guess i really shoulda realized everything about what i felt before... i just didn't want to admit it... what i do want- good luck.... i'm not sure if i'm being fed a bunch of shit or not, but whatever... one day one thing, then a vacation, then all the sudden a complete crazy notion... but i really have no say. never was mine to begin with *shrug* anyway. i'm just dealing with it now... i need to just "be" for a while.
but i've learned a whole lot recently and i know what i feel and think a lot better now. and i swear to god my intuition is kicking in at 22...
i did manage to end up in virginia beach for a couple days... it was neat. i liked it down there a lot and would live down there, but the whole thing there would prolly get old and whatnot... not that i have to live at virginia beach itself. VA was really pretty. i dunno... i know my options.. all the cool people live there anyway! (love ya adam! and it's true). brad keeps telling me to move to aspen... or i can wait until he gets back around here to boston or providence in a few months or so...
gary quit drinking and wants to quit smoking too. he's trying to be a better step dad towards me.... it's weird... i wish it woulda happened when i was younger and it was more important to me... after going so long with him not being there for me like he could of, i just got used to it... but i see that he's putting the effort in... plus it helps that chris is around all summer... we're gonna bond this summer... we went the casino this past weekend. we had a good time (plus desiree came down to go out with us!)
this coming monday i have the kids from the new camp coming to the bakery and i'm working on some more stuff for them to do while they're in town. i'm really excited.
anyway, i'm sleepy and i've been on the phone too much today and running around... blah... i'm not even sure i really know what day it is....
*nite*
mela