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thank you, anonymous, for holding my spot. it's saturday night and i have nothing better to do than sit in front of a computer, that is really sad. lately i feel like i've been focusing so much on "the important things in life" that i completely forget to enjoy myself and then anything is meaningless. i feel old, like i can't relate to the people i should but i don't feel smarter or superior either so usually i just hide out with maddox and the mentality of a three year old is refreshing. look at this, look at me, love me, i love you.
i don't like the person i am portrayed as, in fact i can't stand her. i always thought sex as the most hilarious thing in the world because, come on, it is. the noises, the expressions, the idea of someone else's body parts entering various... you get the idea. and since it's fun i never took it that seriously but that doesn't mean i'm not serious about choosing partners. so bottom line is yes it hurts that the majority of the superficial world sees me as some kind of morally corrupt nympho because i wouldn't sleep with a married man. i really wouldn't. at the moment i don't feel like sleeping with anybody but i really, really want to get laid. quandary.
because i had to cover that. moving on. except i don't have anything to say. i always wanted to be special and now i kinda want to be normal but i don't know where to start.
i don't like the person i am portrayed as, in fact i can't stand her. i always thought sex as the most hilarious thing in the world because, come on, it is. the noises, the expressions, the idea of someone else's body parts entering various... you get the idea. and since it's fun i never took it that seriously but that doesn't mean i'm not serious about choosing partners. so bottom line is yes it hurts that the majority of the superficial world sees me as some kind of morally corrupt nympho because i wouldn't sleep with a married man. i really wouldn't. at the moment i don't feel like sleeping with anybody but i really, really want to get laid. quandary.
because i had to cover that. moving on. except i don't have anything to say. i always wanted to be special and now i kinda want to be normal but i don't know where to start.