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[angiejolie]

i guess my problem is that i never quite get over things. i think i do and suddenly one day i'll make a hurtful remark and it's like whoa hidden anger. i'm preaching about moving on and how easy it is as long as you stay true to yourself, and don't get me wrong these are fabulous ideals but they don't really work in the real world. i guess i'm under the impression that if you loved me once, you'll love me always. no changing, just this everlasting stream of love. and without going too far into the depths of my psych, i'd say this has something to do with my brother. i don't know how i got so lucky. i don't know why this weird and completely amazing person keeps loving me and supports me but he does, and yes, i take that for granted sometimes. so whenever someone hurts me or leaves me or indirectly tells me i'm not good enough, i want to throw that in their faces. this is really personal and essential to my behavior... i don't know. maybe it's wrong and vain but it's not a conscious thought even. i'm forever fascinated with what parts of your life scar you and what just slide right off. maybe everything sticks to you, one way or the other. you're covered in invisible hand prints. watch out for the ones that can bruise you because they are the ones that really matters.

having said that, i'm talking to jonny right now and when i say that kid is better than you, it's because he's better than you. i'm not going to praise him. he's just insane and my better half most of the time. and no praising >:o

my new goal is to have someone write a love song about me that isn't sappy. i like this one.

i don't know, i'm only updating because alex did. i told him the other day he's my original obsession and default cute. i hope he limits his updates to once a month from now on because this is hard. bye.

oh, and:

Albarnio: Ha! Next time, it will last longer, I swear.

what a darling.