It's Actually Brighter Now
I...actually feel so glad that I could cry.
Was feeling so horrible since yesterday, and I mean just in my heart. Like I had done terrible things, I don't deserve to be treated well and all that. But...after this afternoon, it's like all that guilt has disappeared. I was forgiven. Everything went well. I heeded the promptings and did what I had to do. I was told things that put me at peace, for my family and myself. I cannot be anymore grateful than this. I know I have done the right choice, and I will try to be better.
And two other things that I've learned today:
1. If you are hurt, tell it straight to the person who has hurt you, instead of hoping that they would catch your hints, only to become more hurt when in truth they had just not realized what they had done (especially if it had been unintentional).
2. People don't offend you; you make yourself feel offended. In fact, I realized that this is what I had been following the whole time. I thought I was just being ignorant, but really, I just...yeah, I just don't care? Rather than holding grudges and hating on them, why not just forget about it and be happy?
Of course there may be exceptions, but who's to say we are to make ourselves feel miserable over it all the time. The more you think about it, the more you're only going to make yourself feel worse. I guess this is just another way of striving to 'love your enemies', and I'm glad that I'm getting better at it.
Well, in other news, Friday night was practically spent out with eternalilith. Met her at Somerset after work, had dinner at Hot Tomato and ice cream at McD, talked the whole time until just before midnight, where we managed to catch the last trains home, fortunately. But seriously, I was so talkative that day, it's ridiculous. I had lunch with Kevin only since Irene had another appointment and Tongliang stayed behind to watch the office, and we surprisingly talked so much then.
Tomorrow is a holiday, so I'll be going shopping a bit. Oh, speaking of shopping, I will be getting Christmas presents too, so...regular recipients, be prepared. That will be Sora, pompi, avenue (I guess just a regular card for you, after that last...), um, yuechuu maybe? If anyone else wants a card, let me know too. Gotta do it tomorrow 'cause there's no other time for it, what with work on my back. Ugh.
Oh hey, I talked about something else other than work. Yay.
Was feeling so horrible since yesterday, and I mean just in my heart. Like I had done terrible things, I don't deserve to be treated well and all that. But...after this afternoon, it's like all that guilt has disappeared. I was forgiven. Everything went well. I heeded the promptings and did what I had to do. I was told things that put me at peace, for my family and myself. I cannot be anymore grateful than this. I know I have done the right choice, and I will try to be better.
And two other things that I've learned today:
1. If you are hurt, tell it straight to the person who has hurt you, instead of hoping that they would catch your hints, only to become more hurt when in truth they had just not realized what they had done (especially if it had been unintentional).
2. People don't offend you; you make yourself feel offended. In fact, I realized that this is what I had been following the whole time. I thought I was just being ignorant, but really, I just...yeah, I just don't care? Rather than holding grudges and hating on them, why not just forget about it and be happy?
Of course there may be exceptions, but who's to say we are to make ourselves feel miserable over it all the time. The more you think about it, the more you're only going to make yourself feel worse. I guess this is just another way of striving to 'love your enemies', and I'm glad that I'm getting better at it.
Well, in other news, Friday night was practically spent out with eternalilith. Met her at Somerset after work, had dinner at Hot Tomato and ice cream at McD, talked the whole time until just before midnight, where we managed to catch the last trains home, fortunately. But seriously, I was so talkative that day, it's ridiculous. I had lunch with Kevin only since Irene had another appointment and Tongliang stayed behind to watch the office, and we surprisingly talked so much then.
Tomorrow is a holiday, so I'll be going shopping a bit. Oh, speaking of shopping, I will be getting Christmas presents too, so...regular recipients, be prepared. That will be Sora, pompi, avenue (I guess just a regular card for you, after that last...), um, yuechuu maybe? If anyone else wants a card, let me know too. Gotta do it tomorrow 'cause there's no other time for it, what with work on my back. Ugh.
Oh hey, I talked about something else other than work. Yay.