Emo Emo Emo
If I see another one of those kids...I swear...
Work has been blah. You know that already from my past experiences. I would have posted last night already, but I decided to save the trouble till today. It's only a good thing that I haven't completely exploded because I talked to people after that and felt better. Though that doesn't mean I'm not tired from them all... I've never felt so exhausted from merely doing this, let along for only one afternoon. I died last night, and I'm dying even more now. This is supposed to only happen during school days, but it wasn't even because of work but more of lack of sleep. THIS...I was so energized in the morning, but all the energy was wasted in one afternoon.
Long story short, Mom assigned me to teach some 4th grade kids (age 10-13 since they go by standard). Two classes of them, 2 and 1/2 hours each, back to back, in the afternoon, this weekend. Original teacher, Mrs Han is the vice-principal and she was too busy to teach. So I rushed on lunch for both days since class started 12:20pm. First class had 15 students, second class 7. I was slow on the first, quicker on the second. First was easier to teach though, since they would at least listen and respond most of the time. Second, UGH. Did not help my mood at all. I think I sighed a million times during the second class out of exhaustion and plain irritation. And I apologize for not being firm enough, but that's just me. So they made fun, fine, whatever, Mrs Han will be strict anyway, but seriously, I got too lazy to bother them anymore. I think I was barely smiling too. I'm really glad that Mrs Han took over during the last half hour today since I had to do something else in the office, so I sat with the clerk and talked to her. Made my day much better.
But. One more class tomorrow. Ugh. I need sleep, and time and energy to complete my last doujinshi. It's due end of this week, else I'll fail for the event. Sigh. Hopefully everything goes well though, especially since I just submitted the application for the place in the event today. Please please please make this work for me. I've had too much failures nowadays to feel like I'm alive anymore.
When the End (feat. Watanabe Kazuhiro)
いとう かなこ Itou Kanako
So near, but so far away you'll forever be
locked within my heart, presence in the air the melody
So far but so close we stay we shall never be
lost within our hearts
the phantom star, we both will see
But when the end comes will it take it all away?
sweeping our memories, erasing time that we so much shared
when the end comes everything fade away
don't let it come undone within our hearts let it stay
even when...
In darkness we seek for light though it may never be
someday we might find the sky we long so much to see
Hopeless, we still can believe
tomorrow will find it's way
to the key of life the flame withing us we believe
But when the end comes will it take it all away?
sweeping our memories, erasing time that we so much shared
when the end comes everything fade away
don't let it come undone within our hearts let it stay
even when...
Reach out, out towards the distant night
engrave the seed of life in our hearts
so deep that we dream of it
Fear not, the future awaits us
even if fate shall take our soul
we two shall unite as one
But when the end comes
hold you in my arms and I will take all of your pain away
hold on our memories, rebuilding time that we so much will share
the end comes
we'll find each other bound by our soul only our pain can fade away
don't let it come undone within our hearts let it stay
even when...
Work has been blah. You know that already from my past experiences. I would have posted last night already, but I decided to save the trouble till today. It's only a good thing that I haven't completely exploded because I talked to people after that and felt better. Though that doesn't mean I'm not tired from them all... I've never felt so exhausted from merely doing this, let along for only one afternoon. I died last night, and I'm dying even more now. This is supposed to only happen during school days, but it wasn't even because of work but more of lack of sleep. THIS...I was so energized in the morning, but all the energy was wasted in one afternoon.
Long story short, Mom assigned me to teach some 4th grade kids (age 10-13 since they go by standard). Two classes of them, 2 and 1/2 hours each, back to back, in the afternoon, this weekend. Original teacher, Mrs Han is the vice-principal and she was too busy to teach. So I rushed on lunch for both days since class started 12:20pm. First class had 15 students, second class 7. I was slow on the first, quicker on the second. First was easier to teach though, since they would at least listen and respond most of the time. Second, UGH. Did not help my mood at all. I think I sighed a million times during the second class out of exhaustion and plain irritation. And I apologize for not being firm enough, but that's just me. So they made fun, fine, whatever, Mrs Han will be strict anyway, but seriously, I got too lazy to bother them anymore. I think I was barely smiling too. I'm really glad that Mrs Han took over during the last half hour today since I had to do something else in the office, so I sat with the clerk and talked to her. Made my day much better.
But. One more class tomorrow. Ugh. I need sleep, and time and energy to complete my last doujinshi. It's due end of this week, else I'll fail for the event. Sigh. Hopefully everything goes well though, especially since I just submitted the application for the place in the event today. Please please please make this work for me. I've had too much failures nowadays to feel like I'm alive anymore.
When the End (feat. Watanabe Kazuhiro)
いとう かなこ Itou Kanako
So near, but so far away you'll forever be
locked within my heart, presence in the air the melody
So far but so close we stay we shall never be
lost within our hearts
the phantom star, we both will see
But when the end comes will it take it all away?
sweeping our memories, erasing time that we so much shared
when the end comes everything fade away
don't let it come undone within our hearts let it stay
even when...
In darkness we seek for light though it may never be
someday we might find the sky we long so much to see
Hopeless, we still can believe
tomorrow will find it's way
to the key of life the flame withing us we believe
But when the end comes will it take it all away?
sweeping our memories, erasing time that we so much shared
when the end comes everything fade away
don't let it come undone within our hearts let it stay
even when...
Reach out, out towards the distant night
engrave the seed of life in our hearts
so deep that we dream of it
Fear not, the future awaits us
even if fate shall take our soul
we two shall unite as one
But when the end comes
hold you in my arms and I will take all of your pain away
hold on our memories, rebuilding time that we so much will share
the end comes
we'll find each other bound by our soul only our pain can fade away
don't let it come undone within our hearts let it stay
even when...