Obsession #1
I had this poster on my wall. I had so many posters of him on my wall. When I was 12 he was THE MAN. Sometimes the other girls would make fun of me and say he looked like a girl....I would often resort to violence.
In retrospect, this was perhaps the creepiest phase of my life. I thought about this boy I didn't know all the time. Sigh. And he did look kinda like a girl, didn't he? Actually there was one more....
I didn't have this poster but trust me there were many others. When I was 15 he was THE MAN. I thought about this boy all the time. I thought he was so beautiful I wanted to draw him. Sadly, this is why I did start drawing. Sometimes the other girls would make fun of me and say he looked like a girl...to which I had no response.
But that being said I would love to have half as much feeling for anybody now. Sigh. The girly boys don't cut it anymore.
I am torn between smoking a joint and watching the x-files or just watching the x-files. There's always the risk I'll get super paranoid or start thinking about things I purposely avoid thinking about.
What am I even doing? I really don't have time for any of this, including this. I have three midterms coming up. SHIT. I guess I won't smoke a joint-that would lead to me thinking about how I should be either sleeping or studying.