Why am I so miserable?
I just got a call from the UoT saying that I had NSERC pretty much, and I took that other job, and I am frustrated and I feel stupid. I worked really hard to get NSERC and then I got screwed into having to take this job, that's a good job, but I really want the NSERC.
Now I want to really bad talk to the people from the ministry tell them that I want the NSERC, and fail the co-op term. I feel like I made the wrong decision. By far I made the wrong decision. Now I want to switch. As silly as it sounds, I want to go to Kapuskasing.
I am fucking balling and I'm an emotional wreck. I'm going to try to figure something out.
Update:
After several hours of crying and calling people, I have it arranged to drop the job at the MNR and take the NSERC. I feel so relieved, that it's unexplainable.
If I fail, I do. And that's unfortunate, but we'll see.
I'm feeling so much better now. Back to Dr. P.
Now I want to really bad talk to the people from the ministry tell them that I want the NSERC, and fail the co-op term. I feel like I made the wrong decision. By far I made the wrong decision. Now I want to switch. As silly as it sounds, I want to go to Kapuskasing.
I am fucking balling and I'm an emotional wreck. I'm going to try to figure something out.
Update:
After several hours of crying and calling people, I have it arranged to drop the job at the MNR and take the NSERC. I feel so relieved, that it's unexplainable.
If I fail, I do. And that's unfortunate, but we'll see.
I'm feeling so much better now. Back to Dr. P.