This coming weekend...
On friday morning Robert and I shall leave on a train for Burbank. This weekend is the Fangoria Horror Convention. http://www.creationent.com/cal/dod.htm
Im looking forward to it greatly but at the same time Im frightened as all hell. Frightened that things will go badly, that they will suck, that something bad may happen. Im just a paranoid person. Things typically do NOT go well for me so I find it safe to expect and plan for the worst; it'll just be upsetting if something goes wrong or sucks because this is such a long planned and expensive fucking trip.
If I had more money I wouldn't be as stressed out, but Im running out of money and I don't have anymore coming in. I'm battling EDD right now for more support just untill I'm done with school and I very much so do not want to have to go back to some mind numbing minimum wage bullshit job in the meantime that takes up my time and isn't worth the wages. This is why I'm going to school to become a medical assistant god damn it.
I wish I had connections, I wish I had a better body, I wish I had better access to movie auditions. Acting auditions. I would be so incredibly much happier if I we're acting. My heart is truely happy and healthy when Im acting. I've only done high school theater, I want to do more and regular acting for a fucking living. I don't have to be rich, just comfortible and happy. Just happy. Just Content. Even Stability would be lovely.
Anywho... Wish me luck folks, Ima gunna needs it....
Im looking forward to it greatly but at the same time Im frightened as all hell. Frightened that things will go badly, that they will suck, that something bad may happen. Im just a paranoid person. Things typically do NOT go well for me so I find it safe to expect and plan for the worst; it'll just be upsetting if something goes wrong or sucks because this is such a long planned and expensive fucking trip.
If I had more money I wouldn't be as stressed out, but Im running out of money and I don't have anymore coming in. I'm battling EDD right now for more support just untill I'm done with school and I very much so do not want to have to go back to some mind numbing minimum wage bullshit job in the meantime that takes up my time and isn't worth the wages. This is why I'm going to school to become a medical assistant god damn it.
I wish I had connections, I wish I had a better body, I wish I had better access to movie auditions. Acting auditions. I would be so incredibly much happier if I we're acting. My heart is truely happy and healthy when Im acting. I've only done high school theater, I want to do more and regular acting for a fucking living. I don't have to be rich, just comfortible and happy. Just happy. Just Content. Even Stability would be lovely.
Anywho... Wish me luck folks, Ima gunna needs it....