From Russia With Love
So...I've been away from this thing for a week or two now I noticed...there's a good reason, I swear.
I've been with UNHCR...here - not traveling...and well, I was remembering my past trips - we were all talking about the places we've been and the things we've seen...and I remembered Russia. It was a very beautiful place. Cold - but beautiful...until we got to our actual destination...then it was just...poverty...which is not as beautiful. *shakes head*
Anyway - I've said in a few magazines before, that I wanted to adopt more children at some point in my life...and well...
I applied to adopt a russian girl.
I know they'll let me adopt...just, when, is the only question now.
I'm thinking, by the end of the year, I should have another child...to then continue my dream of having a house full of rainbow children. OK, I only have so many bedrooms...so for right now...two should be great....and enough.
I just hope Madness doesn't get jealous.
Let me rephrase - I know he'll get jealous...I hope Madness doesn't get too jealous.
*sighs*
Other than that, Damon and I have had a pretty nice week. We went to an adorable cafe - us and the kids. Missy and Maddox have a lot of fun with each other...it's so great. The M&M's, we call them. *smiles*
What else did we do...?
We went to the park. Madness and I normally to the park anyway - but it was nice to have Damon and Missy with us...it was more fun, even.
I love how Damon is with the M&M's...*sighs* he's such a great dad to little Missy.
It's like sometimes when I see him with them...I think about what it'd be like if Maddox had a father. Not necessarily Damon - just in general.
Would he be a completely different child? Would he still be as possessive of me as he is now? *smirks* I hope I haven't done the wrong thing by raising him without a father...I know I know...women are powerful, more powerful than men...we can do it...and all that stuff. But anthropologically speaking...it's been shown that having both a mother and a father and not just a mother - can impact a child...like...okay, males and females have different instincts, women naturally are made to nurture. Men - are not. But Men are normally the ones to pass on tradition and the manly stuff...I dunno if I make sense. I learned something about this somewhere like 10 years ago - so now - it's all mush to me.
*sighs...hears maddox's voice...*
Anyway...I'm gonna get going. Maddox is calling for me...or having some kind of nightmare.
Be back at some point...
I've been with UNHCR...here - not traveling...and well, I was remembering my past trips - we were all talking about the places we've been and the things we've seen...and I remembered Russia. It was a very beautiful place. Cold - but beautiful...until we got to our actual destination...then it was just...poverty...which is not as beautiful. *shakes head*
Anyway - I've said in a few magazines before, that I wanted to adopt more children at some point in my life...and well...
I applied to adopt a russian girl.
I know they'll let me adopt...just, when, is the only question now.
I'm thinking, by the end of the year, I should have another child...to then continue my dream of having a house full of rainbow children. OK, I only have so many bedrooms...so for right now...two should be great....and enough.
I just hope Madness doesn't get jealous.
Let me rephrase - I know he'll get jealous...I hope Madness doesn't get too jealous.
*sighs*
Other than that, Damon and I have had a pretty nice week. We went to an adorable cafe - us and the kids. Missy and Maddox have a lot of fun with each other...it's so great. The M&M's, we call them. *smiles*
What else did we do...?
We went to the park. Madness and I normally to the park anyway - but it was nice to have Damon and Missy with us...it was more fun, even.
I love how Damon is with the M&M's...*sighs* he's such a great dad to little Missy.
It's like sometimes when I see him with them...I think about what it'd be like if Maddox had a father. Not necessarily Damon - just in general.
Would he be a completely different child? Would he still be as possessive of me as he is now? *smirks* I hope I haven't done the wrong thing by raising him without a father...I know I know...women are powerful, more powerful than men...we can do it...and all that stuff. But anthropologically speaking...it's been shown that having both a mother and a father and not just a mother - can impact a child...like...okay, males and females have different instincts, women naturally are made to nurture. Men - are not. But Men are normally the ones to pass on tradition and the manly stuff...I dunno if I make sense. I learned something about this somewhere like 10 years ago - so now - it's all mush to me.
*sighs...hears maddox's voice...*
Anyway...I'm gonna get going. Maddox is calling for me...or having some kind of nightmare.
Be back at some point...