Bored
Yea so it's been a long time since I've written in this. I've just been busy, workin n takin care of Caleb. So Josh and I are back together. Yeah Yeah Yeah say what you want but I know that every single one of you have said that you wouldn't never get back with someone but did it n e ways. So none of you got n e room to talk shit. I'm happy, I mean at least I think I am. I don't know, I just don't like being alone and Josh just makes me happy for the most part. I mean yea we fight and still got a lot of things to work out but at least we're trying. I know that Josh loves me and I love him, I just wish that all the fightin and arguments would come to an end. I get real tired fightin all the time, not really all the time but I mean I just hate fighting. I know that no relationship is perfect and I'm not sayin that I want mine to be I just wish that some things would change. I don't want Josh to change cause that would be stupid, and for him to have to change who he is just to be with me aint right either. I just mean like our relationship in general. I know that we got a kid together n everything, and I would never take Caleb back for a min. I love that baby to death. He means the world to me, I just think that it would have been better for me to have him like a few more years down the road, cause I'm a party girl and havin Caleb n bein a mommy slowed me way down. I barely go out n e more, I used to but like now that I'm at Josh's there's no one to watch him, and I'm just here all day long especially when I don't work or something. I'm not sayin this so ya'll will feel sorry for me, I'm just venting cause none of you guys call me n more and I'm bored. Ha..... Okay well I'm tired and I gotta work once again tomorrow, since I got that new position, starting on the second (monday) I'll work Mon through Fri and have weekends off, which is gonna be soo much better, and set schedule finally, and I get to sit down all day and just do paper work. If I want more hours I can come in on weekends and be a cashier but I don't know, we'll see.... Alrighty night!