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wow it has been a long time since I have written in this journal. I have to say a lot of things have happened, both good and bad. I am still with my boyfriend. I am happy that we have made it this far and hope for it to continue. I know that their are things that we both need to work on, but hopefully we will work on it together and this relationship will survive anything and everything. I am learning more and more things about him as time goes by and will continue to learn, just how he will learn things about me. The relationship has been through a lot of hardships, but I am happy to say that we are both still here and still together.
Everyday I am trying to figure out new ways to deal with some of my fears. My fears often times is what causes problems, but with time I will have my own little way of dealing with them and in the end the relationship will be that much stronger.
school--now that is another major issue. i have been slacking like never before and i have to get my act together. i know that i can do so well in college, but i have no idea why i am slacking. i really want to improve academically. i will, i know i will. i want to go to law school or grad school , so i have to get my act together. asap..
to that person: i know we have had our hardships, but i think that communication is slacking big time. i do not like being put on the spot especially by someone who i strongly believe is my friend and like family to me. i think addressing people is the best thing to do. i might go on and do my own thing, but that never means that i did not listen. my feelings were so hurt by your actions. i don't hate you or anything because like i said you are like fam to me. I think that your attitude towards many things sucks and hopefully it will change soon. one day you will encounter someone who doesn't give a shit just like you do but will be tougher than you ever expected. that fuck it attitude will get you no where and in the end it is not going to hurt anyone but you. you are too young to have that attitude already and have plenty more to explore. as a friend i am saying that shit needs to change because in the end no one will put up. life is hard enough for everyone but just someone with a positive attitude can make all the difference. i need you as my friend and asfamily, not as someone who forms judgments about me without even trying to understand me.
Everyday I am trying to figure out new ways to deal with some of my fears. My fears often times is what causes problems, but with time I will have my own little way of dealing with them and in the end the relationship will be that much stronger.
school--now that is another major issue. i have been slacking like never before and i have to get my act together. i know that i can do so well in college, but i have no idea why i am slacking. i really want to improve academically. i will, i know i will. i want to go to law school or grad school , so i have to get my act together. asap..
to that person: i know we have had our hardships, but i think that communication is slacking big time. i do not like being put on the spot especially by someone who i strongly believe is my friend and like family to me. i think addressing people is the best thing to do. i might go on and do my own thing, but that never means that i did not listen. my feelings were so hurt by your actions. i don't hate you or anything because like i said you are like fam to me. I think that your attitude towards many things sucks and hopefully it will change soon. one day you will encounter someone who doesn't give a shit just like you do but will be tougher than you ever expected. that fuck it attitude will get you no where and in the end it is not going to hurt anyone but you. you are too young to have that attitude already and have plenty more to explore. as a friend i am saying that shit needs to change because in the end no one will put up. life is hard enough for everyone but just someone with a positive attitude can make all the difference. i need you as my friend and asfamily, not as someone who forms judgments about me without even trying to understand me.