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I'm seriously so irresponsible.stupid.i misread my court papers and missed child support court.i was so sure it was today I even convinced tom it was so neither of us showed up yesterday. He's behind like 6 months he hasn't paid.I'm so angry with myself.nothing seems to be going right right now. I'm seriously depressed.i need to lose weight desperatly. I was looking at pics of me last night when I was thin...ugh I want that again. I think ryan thinks I'm to fat now too. He hardly touched me last night at all. I probably disgust him. I weighed 10 lbs less when we first got together.