*WishyWashy*

[angetothemax]

Well, today was super weird. my concious gets the best of me. First I talk to Scott on the phone and he wants to hang out, but like I feel afraid because like he is older and I was afraid to tell my Dad about him. Like my Dad gives him shit when he calls. Sooo -> I hang out with him, and let me tell you he is the coolest guy ever. He has like 1000 awesome records, he works in a record store, dresses so cute, and he is totally sweet, but he is older than me and it makes me feel weird. We were in his room chatting and he kissed me. I didn't have the butterflies though, I felt uncomfortable because I felt sooo guilty for being there. I'm fucking 18, but I don't know. So I come back and go over to Katie's and Sam is there. I smoke like a million cigs because I am stressing out so badly over the sitcho. So then, I skate up to my house and my Dad and his way hott/cool girlfriend isn't here, so I knew they were at Uncle Adam's, so I plan on going over there, but It on my Mom's on the way. i tell her everything that happened with Scott, and she told me not to lie. So i couldn't take it anymore!!!!!!!!! I skate to uncle adam's and my Dad asked me if I had soemthing to tell him, and I fucking explode."Fuck! Ok, I lied today abotu where I went and I hung out with guy Scott and i don't want to hear anything about it and I felt guilty. Ok?"
So then I go back to Katie's and I wanted to hang out with them, but I felt weird so I went home. I have been so emotional lately it's gross. YUCK. Ok, so then as soon as I get home Yollie told me Tom called, so wee did the funnest sport of all, BOWLING!!! I love it. It was soooo->oooo-> much fun. Tomorrow we are going to the beach real early because it's so beautiful. So I am happy about that. I also need to send Copi's gift-slipped my mid-blah. OOO BIG props to viv on the disneyland thing. Man she is so freaking genius it kills me! OOO muahmuahmuah to my girl Vanessa<3